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[Unattainable666]

If any of you have read any of my posts you know my struggles. I just drove 1600 miles cross country from NM to GA for a "new start." Sadly this move was not a good decision. The job I took is not what they offered. Since I moved the shit I have to deal with is overwhelming for me. I'm so tired. I wanted this move to be a positive one. I know now that no matter where I live the shit show will never stop - there's only one way to stop this insanity. I feel as if I'm in a dark hole and I can't get out no matter how much I try to claw my way up. I'm drowning in my fucked life and have to find some kind of peace. And so I will find the peace I so need. I am lost, alone, lonely and unloved - why would I stay?

 

[mortuarymary]

Rightyho.
I did exactly the same as you. Im so far from home but I've got to live with it. The job didn't work out so I got another one. Don't give up.

 

[Unattainable666]

Rightyho.
I did exactly the same as you. Im so far from home but I've got to live with it. The job didn't work out so I got another one. Don't give up.

I'm so glad things worked out for you. You deserve to be happy.

 

[mortuarymary]

I'm so glad things worked out for you. You deserve to be happy.

So do you.
Happiness doesn't always find you, sometimes you have to look for it. I found mine in my dogs.

 

[Unattainable666]

So do you.
Happiness doesn't always find you, sometimes you have to look for it. I found mine in my dogs.

I've been searching for some kind of peace in my life for a long time. I'm old now and tired of searching

 

[mortuarymary]

I'm 50. I'm clinging on.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

You really deserve so much better. For all the efforts you put into changing your life with a new job so far away from where you lived before, you deserve a positive reward. Idk what you can actually do but I wish you all the best with whatever you are going to do.

 

[Unattainable666]

I'm 50. I'm clinging on.

lol you're a youngster

 

[mortuarymary]

lol you're a youngster

That made me laugh, thank you.

 

[Unattainable666]

That made me laugh, thank you.

the truth is often funny

 

[anxious_depressive]

Hi.

I am so sorry you are feeling this way.

Maybe you can find a job that you like.
And you'll feel a little better.

Big hugs

 

[Unattainable666]

Hi.

I am so sorry you are feeling this way.

Maybe you can find a job that you like.
And you'll feel a little better.

Big hugs

thank you for being so kind and caring

 

[anxious_depressive]

thank you for being so kind and caring

How is Sweet Pea feeling ? )

 

[Unattainable666]

How is Sweet Pea feeling ? )

She is getting really skinny she doesnt eat much anymore but i make sure she has wer, dry food and snacks. she is laying in my lap thank you so much for asking about her

 

[anxious_depressive]

She is getting really skinny she doesnt eat much anymore but i make sure she has wer, dry food and snacks. she is laying in my lap thank you so much for asking about her

It's very sad that Sweet Pea is sick.
But you're taking good care of her.

 

[Unattainable666]

It's very sad that Sweet Pea is sick.
But you're taking good care of her.

She is my life. she's been with me through thick and thin

 

[iusedtobehappy]

Stay with us ok? I'm sending love and healing for you and Sweet Pea

 

[Unattainable666]

Stay with us ok? I'm sending love and healing for you and Sweet Pea

Sorry I've been absent really busy will get with you later tonight