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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,123
Even when good things happen to me in life, I still find life not worth living.

No matter what happens to me, I find life very tiring... the worst part is that I feel this way even when nice things happen.

Having to get up every morning, forcing myself to do things, starting all over again the next day... even if there are moments of pleasure...

A life without living seems better. I'm probably just big lazy...
 
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thelostautistic

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Jul 31, 2025
378
It really is. I feel so overwhelmed by staying alive.
 
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NihilDoll

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Apr 11, 2026
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Yup, couldn't have said it any better.
With the world as fucked up as it is right now, this constant grind loses its meaning more and more.
You're finally having a decent time and the next moment, a fat guy in an ill fitting suit with more power than he should have just decides "Well, sucks for you, i'll fuck shit up even more now".
It's just pointless nonsense at this point. "It is what it is"
 
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Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
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god yeah, waking up and then actually have "to do" things.

it really becomes not worth anymore
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,123
god yeah, waking up and then actually have "to do" things.

it really becomes not worth anymore
Yes 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮
Why people die in sleeping and not ME 😡
 
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Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
149
Yes 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮
Why people die in sleeping and not ME 😡
i have it now that my weekend are needed to just "recover" from my work days.

the fun of eating out is pretty much gone.
heck i can't even play some games because sensory overload so i can really feel this


AND WHY NOT ME?!?!?! or any user of this forum ?!?!?! :pfff:
 
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honestmind

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Jul 4, 2024
30
Feeling similarly. Not sure how I'm supposed to keep this up for another 60 or so years. Sending you strength.
 
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nocturnal123

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Apr 10, 2026
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It's so exhausting to do the same daily chores over and over to no end.
 
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no.death.bed.reQ

Member
Sep 25, 2024
13
It's the people who actually have the will or can always overcome the obstacles that I'm so jealous of
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,123
It's the people who actually have the will or can always overcome the obstacles that I'm so jealous of
Indeed how do people succeed to live without kill themselces?
My life is easier than them😔
 
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