subhuman metalhead
Crowdkiller
- Jul 7, 2023
- 54
I didn't use this site for a while, that was, until my boyfriend cheated on me and my mom broke into my apartment; both of which happened one day after each other. I thought I was doing so much better with only the occasional mood swing but since the birth control patch I'm on wore off completely, my life has been hellish. My insurance keeps denying my medication and I'm at my wits end. Yesterday, I tried to CTB by swallowing a handful of Advil. I texted my friends goodbye and one of them called me begging for me to go to the hospital. I instead forced myself to throw up as many of the pills as I could because the hospital terrifies me. Now, I'm just laying in bed and stressed out of my mind because my anxiety is so severe that I can barely leave my own apartment especially after my mom broke in; I don't feel physically safe in my own apartment and I can't bring myself to go to the hospital.
