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Nitlott

Nitlott

"Wowee!"
Feb 17, 2026
62
Had my last exam today. Did a great job on all of them, actually. Finally got rid of these thoughts, noticed it recently. It feels strange and scary without them. Empty also. Was it stress building up that worsened them?
I wasn't supposed to make it out alive this year. Feels surreal. Didn't have any physical preparations but I've been telling it to myself for the last 3 years. You burry yourself in advance and now you're at the gates of that cemetery... I don't feel like going in. It feels very liberating to feel this. I had moments of anticipating future for the first time, and all smaller things. There's a bunch of stuff I want to finally get into and do. Made a great online friend by chance. Urges went away. Now I have to think of a way to make them go away for sure.
Um. There're a lot of things I'll have to stress over next, I think I'll be picking up the pieces after those years, you know? Slowly, one by one.
 
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Seneca65AD

Experienced
Oct 28, 2025
238
Excellent news! Well done.....my only piece of advice is that for me, the intrusive thoughts always come back. I just try to hold on until they're gone. I do hope you manage to get rid of them for good.

Again, way to go... 👍👍👍
 
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TorturedCerebrum

TorturedCerebrum

Member
Nov 13, 2025
19
congrats on the exams! I hope you continue to have less of those types of thoughts
 
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JoeFailure

Wizard
Apr 29, 2019
618
Very happy for you! That's all you can do about the thoughts though, just little by little they'll probably alleviate. Keep yourself busy and moving towards your goals.
 

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