TatsumiportSkyline7
Member
- Oct 26, 2025
- 7
So some time ago i made a thread here. I don't even remember what was written in it, but knowing me it was probably some dumb bullshit about how i never really wanted to die in the first place. Well turns out i was wrong, i can't handle one more day in this cesspool.
Let's start easy, nothing about my future looks even remotely enticing, like many others i picked a career path i wanted to pursue when i was 14 and regretted it, except that i really went all in with it. I moved away from my family and friends to live with a family member in a city which had a course i could follow. The first year was nifty, then i failed the second year, which i'm repeating right now to the disappointment of literally everyone around me, and the next year is looking to be even tougher. I can't bail or go to another school, and i can't go back to my hometown cause' it's a dead end where hopes and dreams go to die.
If i fail again i won't be allowed to repeat, which will force me to get a job, speaking of which.
I tried getting a job to line up some bread for myself, i quit after the second day after i had a silent panic attack in the middle of the dining room of the shitty second order fast food chain i was working at, apparently not only did i have to be born an autist and a tranny, i also had to develop a social anxiety so bad i can't go outside of my house and having to leave is a whole ordeal i have to hype myself up for, even if it's for some dumbass shit like refilling on energy drinks in the hopes i die of a heart attack.
So yea, literally what other option do i have. I'm trying to push myself to november as a game i'm waiting for comes out in early access and i wanna play it, but after that i don't have any reasonably close things i could stay alive for, so i'm calling it quits. Good job to whoever prayed for my downfall. i'm planning to fall from a 10 story building but i'm ok with literally anything that won't be too painful.
Thank you for reading and i wish you the best, whatever you prospects may be.
Let's start easy, nothing about my future looks even remotely enticing, like many others i picked a career path i wanted to pursue when i was 14 and regretted it, except that i really went all in with it. I moved away from my family and friends to live with a family member in a city which had a course i could follow. The first year was nifty, then i failed the second year, which i'm repeating right now to the disappointment of literally everyone around me, and the next year is looking to be even tougher. I can't bail or go to another school, and i can't go back to my hometown cause' it's a dead end where hopes and dreams go to die.
If i fail again i won't be allowed to repeat, which will force me to get a job, speaking of which.
I tried getting a job to line up some bread for myself, i quit after the second day after i had a silent panic attack in the middle of the dining room of the shitty second order fast food chain i was working at, apparently not only did i have to be born an autist and a tranny, i also had to develop a social anxiety so bad i can't go outside of my house and having to leave is a whole ordeal i have to hype myself up for, even if it's for some dumbass shit like refilling on energy drinks in the hopes i die of a heart attack.
So yea, literally what other option do i have. I'm trying to push myself to november as a game i'm waiting for comes out in early access and i wanna play it, but after that i don't have any reasonably close things i could stay alive for, so i'm calling it quits. Good job to whoever prayed for my downfall. i'm planning to fall from a 10 story building but i'm ok with literally anything that won't be too painful.
Thank you for reading and i wish you the best, whatever you prospects may be.
