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annxietty

annxietty

“Is there no way out of the mind?”
Mar 27, 2023
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I really think life is worth living, dont believe in forever happiness but definetly believe there are people that adapt to life and thrive, they go and travel, meet new people, have dreams and hopes... I dont believe life is bad but I do believe there are people like me and many others here that simply cant live life.

Moving, trying to change, challenge yourself everyday, listen to others, talk to others... you try to do everything you see "normal" and "successful" people do but doesnt work, you follow their tips and still doesnt click, like you are a different species that needs a completely different approach, bound to keep trying until you are too tired and die. People laughing in group walking in front of you in the street and you wonder when you started to be unable to do such thing, no longer dreams or hopes, running away from challenges because they never stop, you never win...

Im not happy for those who live a good life, I envy them, I would kill someone to have that, I would destroy so many things for it, I would kill and betray whatever I have in me to accomplish that. Spending the little strength you have left just to get through the day, living second by second, wondering when you gonna close your eyes and never open them again...

Im sorry, im so alone, the little i had has been lost long ago and soon I will be left with nothing, I wish I was different so badly, life can truly be worth it and it hurts knowing that.
 
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delinquentsandwich

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Jan 23, 2026
40
yeah, I guess we were just dealt a really bad hand or something

it feels like I am under water, drowning and the beautiful life is just out of reach above the surface
I can see it so clearly and yet it wasn't meant for me

I sometimes envy the people with happy or successful lives too but
it's just not who I am to tear or drag others down for my own benefit

my life is a lonely one and it's still so hard to accept
just wasn't meant for this world

I hope our next lives will be better
 
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freeanxiety

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Apr 18, 2026
11
I agree life is worth it, aslong as you are healthy enough to do the good stuff.
 

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