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d4isy

d4isy

worthless
May 30, 2023
249
i don't get why most people love life. it's SO painfully boring. there's absolutely nothing on this planet that makes me feel happy or like life is worth living.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
I don't understand it either. I have never once really enjoyed anything in life. I just see it as an endless amount of suffering and struggle. I know it isn't actually endless due to death but it sure does feel endless
 
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Willy Wonka

Willy Wonka

Experienced
Dec 15, 2021
209
I agree. Only thing I ever enjoyed was taking drugs
 
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L'absent

L'absent

Banned
Aug 18, 2024
1,390
People say they love life because they seek social inclusion. If you don't praise life you are discriminated against and soon you will find yourself alone. Remember that human beings seek reassurance from the moment they are born to the moment they die. How can he find reassurance if he is excluded? And so...human beings must never get tired of pretending that everything is fine, that they are happy. Thus he will be a winner in his world full of illusions, together with all the other deluded people. But the illusion is evil. The illusion is a deception and sooner or later it falls. Then, that fake happiness will pass through disillusionment. Deception and disillusionment...one follows the other. For every gram of happiness there will be 10 grams of pain. A candy every now and then... And the human being will go through hell for that candy and in moments of despair (99% of the time) will seek reassurance. To get reassurance, he will have to pretend to be positive and happy again. An endless sick circle. This is what's behind the mask of those people who appear happy with life to you.
 
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Ethel

Ethel

Hi,I was once here too
Sep 10, 2024
82
True.at some point, I just accepted that I will feel nothing no matter what I do,so I ended up doing things without expecting anything from it,just whatever I want to do,I probably will do
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,084
I really understand as personally I'd never wish to exist, I only hope to never exist again, I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way and I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence.
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
755
I keep asking myself: what is the point of this life? Why do I even exist?
 
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passedawayinapril

passedawayinapril

Burial
Nov 25, 2024
271
i don't get why most people love life. it's SO painfully boring. there's absolutely nothing on this planet that makes me feel happy or like life is worth living.
I am a very bored person aswell,
I am doing nothing with my time
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
The temporary highs people constantly chase after are meaningless
 
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JustSomeWeirdo

JustSomeWeirdo

As the name implies.
Nov 24, 2024
117
i don't get why most people love life. it's SO painfully boring. there's absolutely nothing on this planet that makes me feel happy or like life is worth living.
I agree with this. The only thing that keeps me a tad bit sane is music. My taste is music is confusing... I listen to a shit ton of the metal gear rising ost. Very confusing.
 
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d4isy

d4isy

worthless
May 30, 2023
249
I agree with this. The only thing that keeps me a tad bit sane is music. My taste is music is confusing... I listen to a shit ton of the metal gear rising ost. Very confusing.
oh same here! i listen to soundtracks too..i love listening to them while daydreaming. but once the high dies down and i realize my daydreams will never be real, i get even more depressed lol.
 
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JustSomeWeirdo

JustSomeWeirdo

As the name implies.
Nov 24, 2024
117
The temporary highs people constantly chase after are meaningless
Holy shit your right. You just made me realize that when your at your "peak." You always go down somehow and rarely go back up.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,341
People say they love life because they seek social inclusion. If you don't praise life you are discriminated against and soon you will find yourself alone. Remember that human beings seek reassurance from the moment they are born to the moment they die. How can he find reassurance if he is excluded? And so...human beings must never get tired of pretending that everything is fine, that they are happy. Thus he will be a winner in his world full of illusions, together with all the other deluded people. But the illusion is evil. The illusion is a deception and sooner or later it falls. Then, that fake happiness will pass through disillusionment. Deception and disillusionment...one follows the other. For every gram of happiness there will be 10 grams of pain. A candy every now and then... And the human being will go through hell for that candy and in moments of despair (99% of the time) will seek reassurance. To get reassurance, he will have to pretend to be positive and happy again. An endless sick circle. This is what's behind the mask of those people who appear happy with life to you.
i agree. that's the usual crap. then when you fall into a trap of extreme suffering you see a deeper pit of this hell
 
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JustSomeWeirdo

JustSomeWeirdo

As the name implies.
Nov 24, 2024
117
oh same here! i listen to soundtracks too..i love listening to them while daydreaming. but once the high dies down and i realize my daydreams will never be real, i get even more depressed lol.
True. The reason I choose metal gear rising is that (depending on the music you like) when it gets high. It really goes high! Even its lowest feel pretty good. I can link some to you if you want me too. But also it might not be your type of music.
 
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thereisnoone

It’s getting cold
Mar 26, 2024
352
its just a long chase after something that can hurt me
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,831
Thank god there is a way out.
 
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d4isy

d4isy

worthless
May 30, 2023
249
True. The reason I choose metal gear rising is that (depending on the music you like) when it gets high. It really goes high! Even its lowest feel pretty good. I can link some to you if you want me too. But also it might not be your type of music.
sure, link it! i've been looking for new music.
 
JustSomeWeirdo

JustSomeWeirdo

As the name implies.
Nov 24, 2024
117
sure, link it! i've been looking for new music.
Well it's less link and it's more, tell you the name of the songs, ill name my personal favorites, red sun, rules of nature, stains of time, and it has to be this way. There's many more. Too lazy to name some. Put metal gear rising if you have too. On the verge of hanging myself right now. I'll stay alive a little longer for you.

Update: SON OF A BITCH! I still ain't prepared for all of this!
 
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