Venting Life is so annoying

[sserafim]

Life and its demands are constantly bothering me. I hate the mundane tasks I have to do just to exist. They feel like chores to me. My mom also keeps bothering me. She's so annoying. Like honestly, give me a break. I never even chose to be alive, so why am I burdened with responsibilities and obligations? It's just so unfair. I never asked for any of this shit

 

[drakflowerfire]

The parents can been annoying and hurt us so much.

 

[sserafim]

The parents can been annoying and hurt us so much.

True, but in my case, life just takes so much effort. I don't want to put in any effort at all

 

[Dark Moon]

My mum doesn't really bother me with responsibilities and obligations but yes I didn't choose to be born or alive.

 

[sserafim]

My mum doesn't really bother me with responsibilities and obligations but yes I didn't choose to be born or alive.

My mom bothers me by telling me to "do something". She hates how I lie in bed all day, and she says that I'm "wasting [my] life". She just wants me to be a productive cog in the capitalist wheel though, as she's been brainwashed into believing that we all have to become slaves to the system. She says that the way I live now is "no way to live", she she says that it "isn't a life". I hate how I'm expected to do something. Why should I have to do anything? I hate how I'm expected to be productive. Why is there this obligation? I never chose to be born anyways, so why do I have these responsibilities just because I exist? It's not fair. I wish I could've been a housecat

 

[Dark Moon]

My mom bothers me by telling me to "do something". She hates how I lie in bed all day, and she says that I'm "wasting [my] life". She just wants me to be a productive cog in the capitalist wheel though, as she's been brainwashed into believing that we all have to become slaves to the system. She says that the way I live now is "no way to live", she she says that it "isn't a life". I hate how I'm expected to do something. I hate how I'm expected to be productive. Why is there this obligation? I never chose to be born anyways, so why do I have these responsibilities just because I exist? It's just not fair

Oh, my dad was exactly like that and would say that "this is not a life" and other things, he was hard on me I think but even he accepted my disability and didn't expect me to be working. I'm also not keen on being another hamster on the wheel for society and it's not like I can do it anyway even if I wanted to.

My mum is more softer on me though I think and she doesn't really expect me to be doing anything.

 

[sserafim]

Oh, my dad was exactly like that and would say that "this is not a life" and other things, he was hard on me I think but even he accepted my disability and didn't expect me to be working. I'm also not keen on being another hamster on the wheel for society and it's not like I can do it anyway even if I wanted to.

My mum is more softer on me though I think and she doesn't really expect me to be doing anything.

My mom compares me to "high-functioning" autistic people and asks me why I can't be like them. She compares me to people who are more successful and higher-achieving than me, and wants me to be as successful and accomplished as them. I literally have a DISability, and she knows, yet still expects so much from me

 

[sunsetbeach]

Just came here to say, I wish I could cut my wrists open and slowly bleed to death. Fuck this world. What's the point of struggling if you die in the end anyway?

 

[sserafim]

Just came here to say, I wish I could cut my wrists open and slowly bleed to death. Fuck this world. What's the point of struggling if you die in the end anyway?

Literally. Life is a pointless struggle. I wish I could just dissolve and fade out of existence

 

[Throwawayacc3]

Oh, my dad was exactly like that and would say that "this is not a life" and other things, he was hard on me I think but even he accepted my disability and didn't expect me to be working. I'm also not keen on being another hamster on the wheel for society and it's not like I can do it anyway even if I wanted to.

My mum is more softer on me though I think and she doesn't really expect me to be doing anything.

Opposite - my dad sort of understood that things are completely fucked and bleak (economic wise and people wise) he leaves me alone now. My mum? Harps on all the time and says the words "are you alright" "I just need to know you are alright" daily and sometimes multiple times. She's definetly more "masculine" personality wise as time has gone on - she gets very argumentative, always starts issues, wants to be the top at everything, has a go if you aren't at her level. It's really fucking annoying. Probably wise they argued so much when I was young. Two people are argumentative and combative means a lot more situations where they shout and argue non stop. My dad toned down a bit after he had a stent put in his valve but he was a hot head before and he smoked a lot before I was born apparently (I'd imagine that didn't help with the help). Oh he has diabetes as well probably due to diet. They gas lit me for decades about diabetes and my teeth -

0 fillings and no diabetes from a blood test. What do I have? High cholesterol due to stress lmao. Couldn't make this stuff up. Fucking sick of it. Have to wait until next week to see the GP to chase up on this fucking autism diagnosis grant.

My mom compares me to "high-functioning" autistic people and asks me why I can't be like them. She compares me to people who are more successful and higher-achieving than me, and wants me to be as successful and accomplished as them. I literally have a DISability, and she knows, yet still expects so much from me

She thinks high functioning is rain man - she expects you to go to a casino and count cards and make £50,000 and walk out. Then you'll be ok in her eyes lmao.

Ironically the only time I went to vegas I learned to count cards before I went. In 5 days I paid off the flight, hotel and pretty much food. Nearly had a back off on day 3 (was at The Wynn). It does work but it was small fry stuff. Anyone doing it with large amounts you'll get a lot of eyes on you.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I find it incredibly annoying how the few things life does provide that's enjoyable are paywalled or even effortwalled. Truly nothing good is free.

 

[Throwawayacc3]

I find it incredibly annoying how the few things life does provide that's enjoyable are paywalled or even effortwalled. Truly nothing good is free.

Even the things that aren't enjoyable (medical help) are pay walled off. It's a fucking mess.

 

[Agon321]

I try to understand both sides.

I understand your mom why she's mad and "annoying."
She wants you to do something with your life.
I don't know what you're currently doing all day.
I'm guessing you're vegetating?
It's normal that your mom doesn't like it.
I also vegetate, but I lie to people around me and try to control my situation.

To put it simply, some people don't like it when someone is lazy from morning to night and doesn't do anything with their life.
Especially when it comes to a family member.
You live with your mother, so your mother has additional arguments.

Another thing is your mental state and views.
I understand you.
I understand that you don't want responsibilities because you didn't want to come into this world.
I also currently have a similar approach to life.
However, I have already given up.
I don't know what you plan in the future.

"Normal" people have a different approach to life.
They fight, so they expect the same from others.

I know this is all annoying.
I am also tired of basic duties, but I understand that other people may not like my attitude.
I currently have no goal in life, so any tasks are pointless for me.
But I'm not the most normal person in the world.

Life is a hard road that always leads to death.
Unfortunately, during this adventure you have to struggle a lot with various things.
Tasks are one of them.

 

[umopep!sdn128]

Life has become so terribly boring, I don't understand how I made it to 25 years old. The days drag on so long and I have nothing to do. I feel terrible. Let those who say that you need to occupy yourself with study and work, by the way, go to hell. I also need to portray to my family that everything is fine with me, that I have some goals and desires. And I'm so annoyed by my mother's long vacation that she will be with me all day for more than a month! I can't do what I really like.

 

[Eudaimonic]

It really is. I hate constantly having tasks to do. It's so tiresome.

 

[sserafim]

Life has become so terribly boring, I don't understand how I made it to 25 years old. The days drag on so long and I have nothing to do. I feel terrible. Let those who say that you need to occupy yourself with study and work, by the way, go to hell. I also need to portray to my family that everything is fine with me, that I have some goals and desires. And I'm so annoyed by my mother's long vacation that she will be with me all day for more than a month! I can't do what I really like.

Same. I don't know how I made it to 23. I never even wanted to live past 18. I don't want to reach 25; it's my maximum exit point. Life is honestly just a struggle for survival, and I don't see the point of surviving

 

[Ligottian]

Same. I don't know how I made it to 23. I never even wanted to live past 18. I don't want to reach 25; it's my maximum exit point. Life is honestly just a struggle for survival, and I don't see the point of surviving

I turn 64 tomorrow. At this point in my life, I think I can do the deed after anther trauma or so.

 

[Dark Moon]

Opposite - my dad sort of understood that things are completely fucked and bleak (economic wise and people wise) he leaves me alone now. My mum? Harps on all the time and says the words "are you alright" "I just need to know you are alright" daily and sometimes multiple times. She's definetly more "masculine" personality wise as time has gone on - she gets very argumentative, always starts issues, wants to be the top at everything, has a go if you aren't at her level. It's really fucking annoying. Probably wise they argued so much when I was young. Two people are argumentative and combative means a lot more situations where they shout and argue non stop. My dad toned down a bit after he had a stent put in his valve but he was a hot head before and he smoked a lot before I was born apparently (I'd imagine that didn't help with the help). Oh he has diabetes as well probably due to diet. They gas lit me for decades about diabetes and my teeth -

0 fillings and no diabetes from a blood test. What do I have? High cholesterol due to stress lmao. Couldn't make this stuff up. Fucking sick of it. Have to wait until next week to see the GP to chase up on this fucking autism diagnosis grant.

She thinks high functioning is rain man - she expects you to go to a casino and count cards and make £50,000 and walk out. Then you'll be ok in her eyes lmao.

Ironically the only time I went to vegas I learned to count cards before I went. In 5 days I paid off the flight, hotel and pretty much food. Nearly had a back off on day 3 (was at The Wynn). It does work but it was small fry stuff. Anyone doing it with large amounts you'll get a lot of eyes on you.

My mum also asks me "are you ok" a lot and they also argued at times, my dad did shout at us and smacked me once or twice. Some people's stories with there parents here are much worse than mine. I got diagnosed over a decade ago from the nhs and I don't know what it's like to get a diagnosis now.

My mom compares me to "high-functioning" autistic people and asks me why I can't be like them. She compares me to people who are more successful and higher-achieving than me, and wants me to be as successful and accomplished as them. I literally have a DISability, and she knows, yet still expects so much from me

Those autistics that are able to do that are very high functioning, I'm definitely not on that level and I don't know why she expects that from you, I would hate to have your mum.

 

[hopeless08]

My mom bothers me by telling me to "do something". She hates how I lie in bed all day, and she says that I'm "wasting [my] life". She just wants me to be a productive cog in the capitalist wheel though, as she's been brainwashed into believing that we all have to become slaves to the system. She says that the way I live now is "no way to live", she she says that it "isn't a life". I hate how I'm expected to do something. Why should I have to do anything? I hate how I'm expected to be productive. Why is there this obligation? I never chose to be born anyways, so why do I have these responsibilities just because I exist? It's not fair. I wish I could've been a housecat

You described my mom to a T.
But I feel bad for her cause all she wants is to see me happy and having a life instead of being in bed all the time, it does put pressure on me but I know it's coming from a good place.

 

[Throwawayacc3]

My mum also asks me "are you ok" a lot and they also argued at times, my dad did shout at us and smacked me once or twice. Some people's stories with there parents here are much worse than mine. I got diagnosed over a decade ago from the nhs and I don't know what it's like to get a diagnosis now.
Those autistics that are able to do that are very high functioning, I'm definitely not on that level and I don't know why she expects that from you, I would hate to have your mum.

It's pulling teeth now. It's been over year since the initial GP seeing (and going down the Sertaline route). The actual emails for the National Autistic Society has been about 5 months because I don't have money so I have to get a grant. I've mentioned before but I had to make a folder with all the studies and marking up my experiences on it for them to even consider me. It's a mess….

 

[Abyssal]

Are you me? I understand exactly what you mean. FUCK EXISTENCE AND ALL ITS BULLSHIT!!!

 

[sserafim]

Those autistics that are able to do that are very high functioning, I'm definitely not on that level and I don't know why she expects that from you, I would hate to have your mum.

Lol I'm "high-functioning" as well, but I don't think that I can function in the workforce or real world, nor do I want to. My mom told me that "Water flows downwards, humans strive upwards." It's some dumb Chinese proverb. She always wants me to be better and strive for more

 

[Throwawayacc3]

Lol I'm "high-functioning" as well, but I don't think that I can function in the workforce or real world, nor do I want to. My mom says stuff like "Water flows downwards, humans strive upwards." She always wants me to be better and strive for more

Your mum says so much guff lmao. Is that one of her "positive life quotes" she spouts off to you and others. Sayings like that DONT work for logical people (let alone autistic individuals!!!).

 

[sserafim]

Your mum says so much guff lmao. Is that one of her "positive life quotes" she spouts off to you and others. Sayings like that DONT work for logical people (let alone autistic individuals!!!).

It's not her quote; it's a Chinese proverb. The original is "人往高处走，水往低处流". I guess she wants me to look towards successful people and strive to be like them and emulate their success. She compares me to people who are better than me

 

[Throwawayacc3]

It's not her quote; it's a Chinese proverb. The original is "人往高处走，水往低处流". I guess she wants me to look towards people who are higher achievers than me and strive to be like them and emulate their success.

Yeah I know it was a proverb or something along those lines. I just mean she regurgitates it to you like it going to flip a switch and you'll say "why didn't I think of that! I'm cured!"

Success in her eyes is money/status. That's it. I wonder what would happen if you won the lottery. She probably would be disappointed?

 

[Guy_Smiley]

It's not her quote; it's a Chinese proverb. The original is "人往高处走，水往低处流". I guess she wants me to look towards successful people and strive to be like them and emulate their success. She compares me to people who are better than me

Nobody is better than you! You are better than them. Your mom doesn't realize how lucky she is to have you.

 

[Dark Moon]

Lol I'm "high-functioning" as well, but I don't think that I can function in the workforce or real world, nor do I want to. My mom told me that "Water flows downwards, humans strive upwards." It's some dumb Chinese proverb. She always wants me to be better and strive for more

I know that you are, I said very high functioning, we are definitely not on Elon Musk level for instance. It would suck having your mum because my mum doesn't say things like that jfl.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I often think about how all people are just sacks of poop walking around. So useless and disgusting. Why do we perpetuate? Pointless.