I don't know why I am alive. Life is so shit. Everything feels too much. I have started a new job. I was hoping I would feel better but I don't. My thoughts always comes back to ctb. No matter what I do nothing satisfies me. I really wish I could die. I feel stuck.
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DownwardSpiral
Member
- Jan 21, 2026
- 27
Thats awful, I'm sorry. Can you save up some money from the job for a while and then do something with that?
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 47,166
I just wish to be gone as well, all I want is to be free from this dreadful, torturous existence, I hope you find the relief you search for.
witchcraft
it's too painful to live but I'm too afraid to die
- Nov 27, 2024
- 69
Swissy
New Member
- Nov 1, 2025
- 1
I relate.. I have a fair bit of money have multiple hobbies workout and work a job but nothing helps. Those are the stereotypical things people seem to say to do when struggling, but they don't solve the root problem!Similar threads
