Venting life is painful

[roseleaf]

i didn't even have a horrible childhood.

i don't even have a bad life now.

i didn't have trauma, but for some reason i still got panic attacks all the time. why, brain, why?

the people i knew, the people i still know, have had such worse lives than i have. so why am i like this? i should be happy with my life right? so why am i on this forum, contemplating every second all the possibilities of what could happen when i ctb?

the only thing that has kept me on this world for this long is the fact that i could go through so much more for it to even be deemed acceptable that i should want to die.

i have a headache. and ive been throwing up left and right. and now i want to sleep. and i still want to die.

 

[socrates]

Mental illness can come from a wide range of sources, not just trauma. And it's never a good idea to compare your experiences to others. Your pain is valid. I hope you can find some peace soon. Panic attacks are the worst

 

[Worndown]

Have you sought help for an anxiety issue? That should be the first action taken.

 

[SoftWorries]

All pain is valid. Your pain is valid.

 

[I wish I were a cat]

i didn't even have a horrible childhood.

i don't even have a bad life now.

i didn't have trauma, but for some reason i still got panic attacks all the time. why, brain, why?

the people i knew, the people i still know, have had such worse lives than i have. so why am i like this? i should be happy with my life right? so why am i on this forum, contemplating every second all the possibilities of what could happen when i ctb?

the only thing that has kept me on this world for this long is the fact that i could go through so much more for it to even be deemed acceptable that i should want to die.

i have a headache. and ive been throwing up left and right. and now i want to sleep. and i still want to die.

I'm much the same, no trauma..great childhood. Plus I don't even have panic attacks. Life is just so exhausting and I'm over it/don't have the energy to live.

 

[light.house.71]

Suicide crosses my mind at least a few times a week. No one in my life can understand what I'm going through. But I'm grateful for the posts here from some people who do get it. They make me want to reach out and help anyone I can.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that happiness is just a delusion in this painful existence anyway, nobody should have to earn a right to die in a world where wanting suicide is perfectly logical, suicide is a human right not a privilege that people have to earn by suffering to a certain extent. It's always very much understandable wanting to die, as to die solves every problem and prevents all future torment, of course your feelings are valid.

 

[Mirrory Me]

Have you studied your astrological chart? It has helped me to better understand the difficulties that have come into my life - everything seems to have its own purpose and direction.