Venting life is just horrible

[_Minsk]

sorry for this low quality vent/ rambling post, had a few drinks
im almost 30 and have been trough so much. ive witnessed so many horrible things happening to others and also to myself. when i turned 14, i slowly started to become a lowkey antinatalist, even though at that time i didnt know much about antinatalism itself.
the world is just horrible. the majority of people are religious, i dont know how? havent they been trough lots too, theyve somehow started questioning their religion and beliefs about a loving god?
i dont get it, my mother is a strong believer, even though she had been trough a lot. i dont know if its some sort of coping mechanism but without that, i dont know how she could keep on going in this world with so many painful things she had to go trough..
when my dad dumped her and the family for another one, she broke. it was just horrible, at some point she got introduced to some religion and thats the point where i lost her. her religion started to become the most important thing. if she didnt, she would be judged by her religion god. its a pretty hardcore religion she got into. their god has to be nr1 priority and if they dont worship him like that, they dont deserve him. thats the mindset they have.. having lost a mother to this horrible cult like religion at such young age is not ideal. but thats just another example for how bad this life can be. maybe i should be happy to even have had parents but i still dont feel happy abt it honestly.. if i grew up with a working family, im almost 100% sure i would have a much better life

in this world, the most egoistic ones are usually the ones having the best cards for a good, or at least statistically "better" life. at some point our species started to hunt animals, that was the point where more demanding genes, responsible for bigger brains, bigger muscle, etc could finally be satisfied. much calories and protein are needed for a super predator like us humans.
i have lots of respect for people who avoid animal products, technically they dont get much in return, yet they still do it for the animals.

a human consumes so much meat, its just horrible. just to feed one human being, countless animals have to suffer.
i hate it when people breakdown about the holocaust, while still eating meat from animals that have been trough almost the same thing. its the classical human double standards i hate..
the less empathy one has, the more one gets sadly. sure, if youre a horrible person, people might eventually notice. but thats sadly something that happens very late in many cases, especially in those that are narcissistic and pretend to be a nice person.. the world is full of them sadly..

i hate how lightly people bring more life into this world full of suffering, disease, wars, etc..
ive been writing about this countless times, but it still sucks that your life is basically mostly predefined by your genes, parents, country of birth, gender, amount of money etc..
to be honest, i think that what everyone defines itself with, should basically be their consciousness. and thats always the same for everyone. if you look into the eyes of an animal, like a cow, you will see the same consciousness that every other living being has. its just the genes and context they get born into which decides about them living their live in a nightmare cage vs them having a human life with most freedom. sure you have free will and can mess things up but thats a fraction of the pie imo
its all rolled randomly but a person with good genes and environment gets praised for being so hard working, while a depressed person that barely keeps up and has to work even harder, just gets insults and hate..

its such a crappy life that i didnt ask for..

 

[yotaka]

Hugs to you, friend. I agree with all of this. It's refreshing in a way to find people who get it. It just sucks that we apparently all seem to end up suicidal. I wish there was a better reality for us

 

[Ben 111]

sorry for this low quality vent/ rambling post, had a few drinks
im almost 30 and have been trough so much. ive witnessed so many horrible things happening to others and also to myself. when i turned 14, i slowly started to become a lowkey antinatalist, even though at that time i didnt know much about antinatalism itself.
the world is just horrible. the majority of people are religious, i dont know how? havent they been trough lots too, theyve somehow started questioning their religion and beliefs about a loving god?
i dont get it, my mother is a strong believer, even though she had been trough a lot. i dont know if its some sort of coping mechanism but without that, i dont know how she could keep on going in this world with so many painful things she had to go trough..
when my dad dumped her and the family for another one, she broke. it was just horrible, at some point she got introduced to some religion and thats the point where i lost her. her religion started to become the most important thing. if she didnt, she would be judged by her religion god. its a pretty hardcore religion she got into. their god has to be nr1 priority and if they dont worship him like that, they dont deserve him. thats the mindset they have.. having lost a mother to this horrible cult like religion at such young age is not ideal. but thats just another example for how bad this life can be. maybe i should be happy to even have had parents but i still dont feel happy abt it honestly.. if i grew up with a working family, im almost 100% sure i would have a much better life

in this world, the most egoistic ones are usually the ones having the best cards for a good, or at least statistically "better" life. at some point our species started to hunt animals, that was the point where more demanding genes, responsible for bigger brains, bigger muscle, etc could finally be satisfied. much calories and protein are needed for a super predator like us humans.
i have lots of respect for people who avoid animal products, technically they dont get much in return, yet they still do it for the animals.

a human consumes so much meat, its just horrible. just to feed one human being, countless animals have to suffer.
i hate it when people breakdown about the holocaust, while still eating meat from animals that have been trough almost the same thing. its the classical human double standards i hate..
the less empathy one has, the more one gets sadly. sure, if youre a horrible person, people might eventually notice. but thats sadly something that happens very late in many cases, especially in those that are narcissistic and pretend to be a nice person.. the world is full of them sadly..

i hate how lightly people bring more life into this world full of suffering, disease, wars, etc..
ive been writing about this countless times, but it still sucks that your life is basically mostly predefined by your genes, parents, country of birth, gender, amount of money etc..
to be honest, i think that what everyone defines itself with, should basically be their consciousness. and thats always the same for everyone. if you look into the eyes of an animal, like a cow, you will see the same consciousness that every other living being has. its just the genes and context they get born into which decides about them living their live in a nightmare cage vs them having a human life with most freedom. sure you have free will and can mess things up but thats a fraction of the pie imo
its all rolled randomly but a person with good genes and environment gets praised for being so hard working, while a depressed person that barely keeps up and has to work even harder, just gets insults and hate..

its such a crappy life that i didnt ask for..

Yeah i agree with you... Antinatalist for life

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I am 57f. And was an antinatilist before I even knew there was a name for it. I consciously chose to not have children, knowing the sufferings of life and I did not want to bring another being in this world and I also did not want to pass on my mental illnesses. While my friends were all raising children, I devoted that time of my life to the local animal rescue making sure they all found homes and not killed.
We actually had a gas chamber back when I volunteered. It makes me sick to even think about it now. I LOVE all animals and humans are not any greater species like they think. ALL lives matter. I don't even kill bugs. I do still eat some meat(not everyday) and animal products like yogurt and eggs, which I hate but I think its very hard if not impossible to be hard-core vegan and be healthy. Some may disagree but I think we are omnivores and meant to consume plants and animals. If there is a creator of this earth, they set it up to be very cruel with killing as a means to stay alive. There are plenty of animals that don't eat meat, so why couldn't every species be designed like that. People will say its the circle of life but nature is brutal. Also, I am not religious but know religious people who "pray" for me to get better, lol. I envy those who have such strong faith when things go wrong. I don't know how it's possible to believe in a loving God. I mean life is certainly way more suffering than joy. Anyway, I'm glad your eyes are open to the truth. Once you see it you can never unsee it.