life is insane

[Darkover]

Existence is absurd. We don't know where the universe came from. We don't know how the universal forces came into being, or how quarks and energy were made. We don't know of the countless lightyears of space. Time is just a construct which is manipulated by gravity and other indescribable forces. We don't know how life began, or how consciousness works. We don't even know for a fact there is other life. We humans don't have free will, and are influenced and influencers of our environment. We love to live out these fantasy made up stories like God, human rights, laws and morality. We group ourselves in almost nonsensical categories. We are an ancient species, and so much of our time in existence is unknown and lost to the ages. We don't have souls and our "identity" is nothing more than our influences. We aren't anything separate from them. We are just molecules from nature and the universe, like a wave in an ocean, here one day, gone the next. Meaningless, meaningless, everything is meaningless.

We literally live on some random minuscule speck of dust which spins around a tiny tiny (yet immense) ball of fire, which in turn spins around on an arm of a galaxy, which probably spins around something greater. And there's trillions and trillions of these galaxies each containing trillions and trillions of stars. We don't even know whats beyond the outskirts of the observable universe.

We don't know how the fuck we got here and were the fuck were going to. We are built to survive on this hyper specific planet, not even understand truth. We just got 80 years here to have fun, mess around, work, survive, suffer and die. Then where do we go? back to the void where everything came from? somewhere else? who knows. We don't know anything. Enjoy it i guess. How strange it is to be anything at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just see existence itself as being such a tragic, unnecessary mistake, it's just meaningless suffering and senseless cruelty all for no deeper reason or purpose, it's something so hellish to me, the way I see it, existence is just a disturbance in what would otherwise be the most ideal state of perfect nothingness.

 

[Professor K]

And yet we have to conform to a system that perpetuates suffering, let powerful groups enrich themselves out of any and all living being and create non sensical values, morals, rules, laws, culture in order to continue this futile cycle. There's no way out of this other than death for those who can't adapt.

 

[Superdeterminist]

true, it's absurd. for me it has also been utterly horrifying, and i really mean that, it's not melodrama. there are things i can't even mention on this forum because they're so grim, despite this forum being in some sense the 'ultimate safe space'. and i bet there are many others here in a similar situation.