Painless_end
Life is too difficult for me
- Oct 11, 2019
- 794
I have some sort of neurobiological problem that is not diagnosable it seems. Atleast not by any current medical professionals.
I can't get interested in life at all beyond the basic things like food and personal hygiene.
I have no desire to learn or earn.
I have actually been like this all my life but it was still somewhat manageable when I was younger because I didn't have as many responsibilities then. I have still managed to scrape through an undergraduate degree in computer engineering and work in 2 different jobs for 6 years. Then I simply quit last year and said I won't do a job anymore.
Just to clarify, I am not depressed right now. I am just permanently numb.
My lack of interest in life is somehow not so problematic to me because I manage to live without goals by doing basic stuff but it's a problem for my parents because I am 31 and still live them. More importantly, I sit at home all day and only go out for chores. Otherwise I just blatantly refuse to acquire any new skill or get a job.
I just don't want to do any of those things. It's like I am completely tired of life and want to die. But I can't find the courage to CTB.
I just feel trapped. I want a way out.
I can't get interested in life at all beyond the basic things like food and personal hygiene.
I have no desire to learn or earn.
I have actually been like this all my life but it was still somewhat manageable when I was younger because I didn't have as many responsibilities then. I have still managed to scrape through an undergraduate degree in computer engineering and work in 2 different jobs for 6 years. Then I simply quit last year and said I won't do a job anymore.
Just to clarify, I am not depressed right now. I am just permanently numb.
My lack of interest in life is somehow not so problematic to me because I manage to live without goals by doing basic stuff but it's a problem for my parents because I am 31 and still live them. More importantly, I sit at home all day and only go out for chores. Otherwise I just blatantly refuse to acquire any new skill or get a job.
I just don't want to do any of those things. It's like I am completely tired of life and want to die. But I can't find the courage to CTB.
I just feel trapped. I want a way out.