Plenty of long nights to myself thinking about my death im so pathetic I should've ctb earlier in life when I was young if I had known that it would turn out this bad in my 20s I would have this world had treated me very unfair It has lead to to make the decision to ctb soon because I can't take it for much longer I blame my mother for bringing me into this world with no guidance to how cruel it can be to people like me who suffer greatly from being isolated by society and spend all day with themselves I'm so hard on myself for not talking action early in life believing the myth that I can get better from psychiatrists is why I am here today I hate this cruel world it has offered me more pain then joy more depression and loneliness then happiness I'm ready now to take action and ctb and I'm determined to let nothing stop me from ctb not my parents or "professionals " I choose what I will do with my body and no one else .
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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I agree that existence certainly is just endless suffering, and it's something that is completely futile and unnecessary as well, I see the existence of life as being a horrific tragedy. It does repluse me how so many people want to completely deny the option of suicide from people, making us prisoners to this existence, and slaves to suffering. But anyway I also despise existing and in this world that is filled with harm and risks there is no such thing as it "getting better". Instead all that is inevitable is even more suffering, decay and loss just to die anyway, I think it's irrational to actually want to be tortured by old age.
