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emgrl

emgrl

Mage
Aug 6, 2022
575
You ever see parts of your life just flash before you? Like how they explain in NDE? I know it's probably because the state I'm in, but I keep having random chunks of my life just come rushing to me. I remember everything, what I was wearing, who I was with… and it's years that will go by so quickly, with some memories lasting longer than others.

It's bittersweet. They're all such happy times. It's better to focus on the negative. Makes this process a lot easier.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
Not quite. The closest thing for me is randomly having flashbacks to bad memories or times when I did something that was extremely cringe/awkward.
 
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flightless bird

flightless bird

somewhere over the rainbow
Aug 18, 2022
226
Everyday. My memories are all I have. Unfortunately my mind interprets "bittersweet" as total hell, it's like, hearing a simple song from my past could literally kill me. I wake up in tears in the middle of the night. Horrible thing to live in pain and longing all the time.
 
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emgrl

emgrl

Mage
Aug 6, 2022
575
Not quite. The closest thing for me is randomly having flashbacks to bad memories or times when I did something that was extremely cringe/awkward.
Those are quite frequent for me, too ♡
Everyday. My memories are all I have. Unfortunately my mind interprets "bittersweet" as total hell, it's like, hearing a simple song from my past could literally kill me. I wake up in tears in the middle of the night. Horrible thing to live in pain and longing all the time.
I get that, too
None of this is easy… ♡
 
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Enlightened
Aug 14, 2022
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I had a NDE yeah.. it also happens when I take LSD.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
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You ever see parts of your life just flash before you? Like how they explain in NDE? I know it's probably because the state I'm in, but I keep having random chunks of my life just come rushing to me. I remember everything, what I was wearing, who I was with… and it's years that will go by so quickly, with some memories lasting longer than others.

It's bittersweet. They're all such happy times. It's better to focus on the negative. Makes this process a lot easier.
Yes, the happy times I keep thinking about, especially this time of year with our Fall trips, can't stand life without her here! I hate it!
 
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thebunny

thebunny

be what they fear.
Aug 19, 2022
227
been getting a lot of those recently and i'm not really sure how to process it every time i do. they make me feel warm and nostalgic, but at the same time, heartbreaking. i just know that it's a sign of what's about to happen soon — getting the peace i've always wanted.
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,758
I haven't had such as happy times so i don't know, well, school, it wasn't that bad but it wasn't great either
 
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emgrl

emgrl

Mage
Aug 6, 2022
575
I had a NDE yeah.. it also happens when I take LSD.
I'd love to hear about those experiences
Yes, the happy times I keep thinking about, especially this time of year with our Fall trips, can't stand life without her here! I hate it!
I'm so sorry, I hope you find peace
been getting a lot of those recently and i'm not really sure how to process it every time i do. they make me feel warm and nostalgic, but at the same time, heartbreaking. i just know that it's a sign of what's about to happen soon — getting the peace i've always wanted.
That's exactly it! You were definitely picking up what I was putting down. Peace awaits us ♡
I haven't had such as happy times so i don't know, well, school, it wasn't that bad but it wasn't great either
Hope you have happier times ahead ♡
 
Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I'm constantly flashing back to the past and seeing things in a new light …
 
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tiny_dancer

Student
Aug 23, 2022
136
Oh my goodness, yes. I have been getting such vivid flashbacks of very random times throughout my life, almost like I'm there again reliving those moments. Totally bittersweet, remembering these beautiful moments from life but also so painful, knowing what life has become.
 
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onetapgandhi

Student
Oct 4, 2022
119
Sometimes, I just get a dream. I go for a job interview where I am over qualified. I start from a mind numbing entry level position trying to rebuild my life from the ground up. Then somehow, sometime after getting the job but before first day, I meet my school friends. They are all there. We play basketball and stuff. Everyone except me is in school uniform so they give me one too. We laugh. We chat. My high school crush stands by the side of the court shyly laughing at my overzealous attempts to impress her. My friends tease me. We walk off the court singing songs like we used to. Then I wake up. Then its just pain. Infinite pain. The closer and closer I get to CTB, the more is the frequency of these kinda dreams. Either, I am back in the good times and reliving them or I am starting a new life but all the people that made the times good are still there unchanged by the time. I want this mental torture to end. I can't stand it.
 
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TydalWave

TydalWave

Brutally Self-Aware
Sep 20, 2022
436
You ever see parts of your life just flash before you? Like how they explain in NDE? I know it's probably because the state I'm in, but I keep having random chunks of my life just come rushing to me. I remember everything, what I was wearing, who I was with… and it's years that will go by so quickly, with some memories lasting longer than others.

It's bittersweet. They're all such happy times. It's better to focus on the negative. Makes this process a lot easier.
Yeah... It's been happening to me recently too. It is crazy how much the mind holds onto. My dreams have also been vivid in past weeks.

It reminds me of when my grandfather was passing from parkinsons. He was able to recall memories from his early childhood in such clarity like they were yesterday. I never understood how the mind was able to do that until now. It's almost like a defense mechanism kicks in when the mind begins to accept death.
 
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