Life and loneliness

[lainsitooo]

Everyday, when I wake up, the first thing I think is that the day it's over, I go up on my daily routine and it's all the same over and over again.
I wonder if this is going to end soon, or maybe I don't have an scape at all.
I think I stop caring about what surrounds me, and that's the problem; I feel like I am just being ungrateful and selfish towards other people but I can't help it, I can't control that mean behavior of me and I always feel guilty when I harm someone I really love.

Since I was a kid, because of my dad's job, I always moved, it was pretty painful, because I was getting used to a place and then we had to move again. I always made friends wherever I go, but I still lost them and didn't have always a strong relationship with someone because I was always moving, so i never had a steady relationship with someone.

 

[temporal_anchorite]

hey you're just like me fr fr

i'm an asshole but i swear it's not deliberate (most of the time), i'm just very impulsive and neurotic

growing up, my dad must've moved places at least 20+ different times. he was financially irresponsible, could hardly keep a job, and his credit was fucked, so consequently we bounced around a lot of places.

do you have friends now? i feel like a lot of the instability from my upbringing has carried into my adult life and I can't maintain any relationship of any kind for shit lmao

 

[lainsitooo]

hey you're just like me fr fr

i'm an asshole but i swear it's not deliberate (most of the time), i'm just very impulsive and neurotic

growing up, my dad must've moved places at least 20+ different times. he was financially irresponsible, could hardly keep a job, and his credit was fucked, so consequently we bounced around a lot of places.

do you have friends now? i feel like a lot of the instability from my upbringing has carried into my adult life and I can't maintain any relationship of any kind for shit lmao

Same!
Gladly, I have a best friend, we are still in contact even though I moved away, probably one of my longest relationships.
I am going to move away from the city I live right now, but I am not worried at all since I know some people there because I already lived there, so I guess it is good that I know some people.