Venting life and bpd

[hiding the roses]

God my life sucks. BPD truly has turned me into a horrible mess I know I cant reverse. Relationships never work out and just torture me mentally but I depend on feeling loved and desired to function properly. The moment I feel discarded or unloved its like I shut down completely and cant even get out of bed to shower.
Atleast ill be dead soon.

Photo of my cat below because hes the only reason I keep going

 

[chudcell]

Hope you're okay. I get how you feel and if you need to dm im here best wishes