Leftism and Wanting To CTB

[lemonandcapers]

Leftists of SaSu, is being a leftist part of the reason you want to CTB?

Genuinely, right now, being a leftist is a part of the reason why I want to CTB. I feel like I'm too mentally weak to be a leftist despite it generally being where I fall.

The idea of having to organize and form community with people as insufferable as other leftists… I mean I know we all can't be in peace and harmony like in a kid's book, but I can't do it. There is so much infighting and pointless arguments. There are some that say that having your views challenged and being uncomfortable is an important part of progress, but I feel physically ill when I receive criticism from others. I have tried so hard to make it so I don't, but I just can't.

I try to be their version of perfect, but I feel like an imposter. I don't know who I am, I am just a sum of the values of those around me.

A part of this may just be my morality OCD talking, but if this is what it takes to create the perfect society that leftists want, I don't think I'm cut out for the work. I know damn sure that if they find me out and that I am more of a normie than they want me to be, I will be shunned.

 

[Mr. Snrub]

Man competitive leftism could be an Olympic sport going by the amount of these threads. I've heard the saying "the left eat their own" I guess I didn't know how true it was.

I do see it sometmes within my own friend group though, getting pounced for any kind of perceived "wrongthink". I tend to take it in my stride these days. I know I'm not perfect and I'm not bothered about trying to be.

 

[grapefruit04]

I know you may not be looking for advice, but I understand your frustration. If you also haven't it it's something you can consider, drop any idea of what it means to be a "leftist". And just ask yourself what you believe in, truly. It doesn't have to be about the state of the world or what an ideal society would look like, just about who you would like to be for yourself and your local community.

And if you want to learn more about topics that matter to you, don't look for them on social media. Social media is too reactive and shallow. You will most often not find anything meaningful on there. Many people who argue online with strangers are just falling victim to the design that push the arguments and discourse, there is just a lot of hostility. Most online political debates I've seen also wastes of time to reafirm their own ideas and profit. I don't know you personally but if you call yourself leftist, you may be concerned with human rights? That means you care about others and that is valuable. I know you feel exhausted from all the noise but it's worth it to invest in your wellbeing and take a step back

Edit: im still trying to make sense of what I believe in too. Im not an expert on politics at all but I just know that you need rest, so please take it easy. I hope that you're doing okay