Venting Left Behind

[PrettyWhiteFlower]

I'm nearly 40 and I haven't achieved a single thing in my life. I feel like I've been left behind. Everyone I knew grew up. They have careers and husbands and kids. I've never had a relationship last longer than a year. I've never held a job longer than 2 years and I hated every single one. I had to move back in with my mother after I got sick physically and it's been almost 10 years. I have no skills or talents. I've never had any sort of dream or goal for my life. I'm not even living I just exist and I'm not even doing a good job at that. Even if I had something I wanted to do I can't because I'm always sick and even if I got better I'm too old to do anything now

 

[Buh-bye!]

I feel the same as you do most of the time. This feeling doesn't even let you make peace with your death, it's constantly bugging you and making you feel anxious. I am not one to comfort but all i can say is, over the course of time, if you observe people enough you realize nobody is the perfect achiever like the characters in shows and books. Everybody has some shit going on, some people have it harder than others and you are one of those. The point i am trying to make though is commonness is more common than you might feel. Life is pointless in the long run and all of the little dreamy goals that we are so fixated upon, they don't always get completed. Life's just filled with regrets and you see it more as you turn experienced. That's why you can say some wise stuff as you grow old, because now you know that. You have felt something many haven't yet.



Alright i am gonna leave now.
Bye, Night.
For real this time.
Bye, Night.