Leaving within an hour.

[Fengshuiside]

Hi! Again.

I thought I'd just make a separate post now since everything is figured out and I'm good to go. The rope is set up and waiting for my neck. This time it's supposed to be an official goodbye-thread. I can certainly feel it this time. I said last friday: "I'll have 1 more week left at best with no possibility to change my mind." The statement still holds. I have 3,66€ left on my bank account and a couple beers accompanying me.

I took some oxies 4 hours ago, so they're not really affecting much anymore, but I'm feeling nice and chill. The weather outside is beautiful, the sun is shining nicely and the birds are singing and cheering me on my mission. I'm feeling calm with a slight grin of relief on my face.

Well, that's all. There's not much substance to this post. I just wanted to report this now that I'll be going for good, so you'll get an official post, unlike my earlier one that just postponed for 3 weeks with maybe soon-vibes and me channeling my hatred of society intoxicated. I'm glad I wasn't alone here with these thoughts and views.

Like I've said before, I really wanted to live and there's many things I wanted to do in life. It sucks that I'm in this situation but it can't be helped. Oh and fuck society. Aight, that's all I wanted to say. Have a good one.

 

[nvnvnv123123]

What's your method?

 

[Musketeer]

What's your method?

he talked about a rope and his neck waiting for it, that says it all. He's using the same method i will be using hanging.

Hi! Again.

I thought I'd just make a separate post now since everything is figured out and I'm good to go. The rope is set up and waiting for my neck. This time it's supposed to be an official goodbye-thread. I can certainly feel it this time. I said last friday: "I'll have 1 more week left at best with no possibility to change my mind." The statement still holds. I have 3,66€ left on my bank account and a couple beers accompanying me.

I took some oxies 4 hours ago, so they're not really affecting much anymore, but I'm feeling nice and chill. The weather outside is beautiful, the sun is shining nicely and the birds are singing and cheering me on my mission. I'm feeling calm with a slight grin of relief on my face.

Well, that's all. There's not much substance to this post. I just wanted to report this now that I'll be going for good, so you'll get an official post, unlike my earlier one that just postponed for 3 weeks with maybe soon-vibes and me channeling my hatred of society intoxicated. I'm glad I wasn't alone here with these thoughts and views.

Like I've said before, I really wanted to live and there's many things I wanted to do in life. It sucks that I'm in this situation but it can't be helped. Oh and fuck society. Aight, that's all I wanted to say. Have a good one.

I very much share your pain. I would love to live a full life but i have medical conditions that cause me great pain. Maybe in my next life he can find happiness because my next life is already picked out.

 

[jitendrabagaria786@]

I will be hanging too tomorrow night hopefully, leaving behind an infant, wife and mother I too wanted to live but the circumstances I've created for myself won't let me live

 

[Fengshuiside]

What's your method?

Hanging. Full suspension and short drop. Perhaps I can post you a picture of the setup. I'm going to hyperventilate for a couple minutes and hold my breath so hopefully I don't need to spend as much time swingin' around, but we'll see how it goes.

 

[miserableforever]

Hi! Again.

I thought I'd just make a separate post now since everything is figured out and I'm good to go. The rope is set up and waiting for my neck. This time it's supposed to be an official goodbye-thread. I can certainly feel it this time. I said last friday: "I'll have 1 more week left at best with no possibility to change my mind." The statement still holds. I have 3,66€ left on my bank account and a couple beers accompanying me.

I took some oxies 4 hours ago, so they're not really affecting much anymore, but I'm feeling nice and chill. The weather outside is beautiful, the sun is shining nicely and the birds are singing and cheering me on my mission. I'm feeling calm with a slight grin of relief on my face.

Well, that's all. There's not much substance to this post. I just wanted to report this now that I'll be going for good, so you'll get an official post, unlike my earlier one that just postponed for 3 weeks with maybe soon-vibes and me channeling my hatred of society intoxicated. I'm glad I wasn't alone here with these thoughts and views.

Like I've said before, I really wanted to live and there's many things I wanted to do in life. It sucks that I'm in this situation but it can't be helped. Oh and fuck society. Aight, that's all I wanted to say. Have a good one.

All of the people here are the friends I never had. You're not alone with those crushed dreams. I hope everything will work out for you today, whatever you choose to do

 

[Musketeer]

Hanging. Full suspension and short drop. Perhaps I can post you a picture of the setup. I'm going to hyperventilate for a couple minutes and hold my breath so hopefully I don't need to spend as much time swingin' around, but we'll see how it goes.

I will be going out the same method old reliable is what i call it. As long as the rope and the support holds your body weight and you are not disturbed it's pretty much a guaranteed death. It's also fairly simple compared to poisoning yourself you need to figure out doses (which are based on weight) where as hanging anything that can support 500lbs-1000lbs+ should be more than enough to compinsate. my setup can support 1000lbs plus no matter how much my 240lbs body thrashes it's not going to give.

 

[Fengshuiside]

he talked about a rope and his neck waiting for it, that says it all. He's using the same method i will be using hanging.

I very much share your pain. I would love to live a full life but i have medical conditions that cause me great pain. Maybe in my next life he can find happiness because my next life is already picked out.

Ha, I'm right on board with you man! Wish I figured out my potential earlier and realized what I'm capable of doing if I just set my mind to it and do it. I'm in my early 20's and I realized it only after permanently fucking up my brain with drug abuse and seizures that left me braindamaged and emotionless.

I will be hanging too tomorrow night hopefully, leaving behind an infant, wife and mother I too wanted to live but the circumstances I've created for myself won't let me live

Uff. Sounds pretty tough. I'm glad to hear the infant will at least have his/her mother so it won't end up alone in the system. I hope you get better though. Wish you luck with whatever you choose to do.

I guess it's sort of a blessing that I've been suicidal since kindergarten from this perspective. I knew from early on that I'll never bring any children in this inverted hell hole. And since it's been like a spider-sense for me that I knew I'll end my life one day as a kid already, I never even considered getting pets of my own, so I wouldn't have to worry about leaving them behind.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I guess it's sort of a blessing that I've been suicidal since kindergarten from this perspective. I knew from early on that I'll never bring any children in this inverted hell hole. And since it's been like a spider-sense for me that I knew I'll end my life one day as a kid already, I never even considered getting pets of my own, so I wouldn't have to worry about leaving them behind.

That's a long time to be aware of how you were going to leave the world. Did suicide feel like a menacing thing on the horizon that you couldn't avoid, or was it a comforting thought back then, to know you could leave the world whenever you wanted to?

 

[jitendrabagaria786@]

Ha, I'm right on board with you man! Wish I figured out my potential earlier and realized what I'm capable of doing if I just set my mind to it and do it. I'm in my early 20's and I realized it only after permanently fucking up my brain with drug abuse and seizures that left me braindamaged and emotionless.

Uff. Sounds pretty tough. I'm glad to hear the infant will at least have his/her mother so it won't end up alone in the system. I hope you get better though. Wish you luck with whatever you choose to do.

I guess it's sort of a blessing that I've been suicidal since kindergarten from this perspective. I knew from early on that I'll never bring any children in this inverted hell hole. And since it's been like a spider-sense for me that I knew I'll end my life one day as a kid already, I never even considered getting pets of my own, so I wouldn't have to worry about leaving them behind.

I never wanted to marry or have a kid but I did everything just sack of relatives and society pressure ( I'm from rural India and it's a very much big deal here) now when everything was going okay I fucked it up big time and discovered that I was suffering from some kind of mental illness from childhood and there is no going back.

 

[Fengshuiside]

That's a long time to be aware of how you were going to leave the world. Did suicide feel like a menacing thing on the horizon that you couldn't avoid, or was it a comforting thought back then, to know you could leave the world whenever you wanted to?

Yeah well you can imagine what kind of mindstate such a kid has. It was certainly more comforting than menacing, but it wasn't really either. I just hurt so bad that I would've preferred not to exist, but I didn't have an imagination great enough to figure out how to properly commit juice sight and I was also afraid of the physical pain and didn't want to hurt my parents/family either so here I am.

Honestly I've never been alive because I wanted to. I've only existed because I love my parents and don't want to hurt them, but that doesn't work out forever. I wish I was actually abandoned by my parents or that they wouldn't give a shit about me. It would been so much easier to commit sewage sigh. Sounds crazy huh.

But anyways, I'm going to log off and reset my laptop. I might come back to post a picture of the setup before I go, but not promising anything. The mission starts now.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Honestly I've never been alive because I wanted to. I've only existed because I love my parents and don't want to hurt them, but that doesn't work out forever.

I can relate to this 100% even though it isn't my parents that I'm staying alive for. Like you said, it doesn't work out forever. It certainly won't for me. Wishing you the best.

 

[whatevs]

Wishing the best for you, good luck with your saw inside and an end to your suffering. It's unfortunate to have to do this but being forced to exist when you no longer want to is certainly worse.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really is so cruel and unfair and it is always sad to hear about those who do not want to die but yet they feel like they have no other choice. I can imagine that it must be a relief to feel calm about everything. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[Musketeer]

This life really is so cruel and unfair and it is always sad to hear about those who do not want to die but yet they feel like they have no other choice. I can imagine that it must be a relief to feel calm about everything. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

Some people are dealt a bad hand, or through circumstances get messed up, and want to end their lives. If there was a cure for my conditions or a better way to manage the pain I feel every day I would totally live. Your right, life is cruel like that, when i die i will feel all my pain at once then nothing because this life will be over. There is a great solace in that. then I will reincarnate, and maybe he will get the chance to live a better life than i did. I don't want to die as much as i want a new start with different circumstances.

 

[Medicmedic72]

I'm sorry to see you go. I hope you find peace regardless of the decision you make today.

 

[MsMaudlin]

Goodbye @Fengshuiside , I'm sorry I'm too late.

❤

 

[Musketeer]

I take it you are dead, unless you update. Rest peacefully @Fengshuiside