Venting I don't enjoy living

[BlooBerryBanjo3000]

I'm not living because I want to. I don't. I'm only living for my family's sake. I don't want them to feel extremely bad. I just can't. And because of this, I continue living and doing the things I don't want to do, just to keep them somewhat happy.

I feel so ungrateful because they are good people and that I have nice things, a good life basically. Yet, just having the knowledge about life and the way it functions makes life insufferable to me. I seriously wish I could give my life to someone who actually wants to live instead of just throwing it away.

 

[bankai]

I don't enjoy life either. There's just no joy for me anymore. I have a decent family, I have money, I own my own home. Lot of other good things in my life, but I just feel a lack of joy, the inability to be happy. That being said, I think each person's life is only their own. If you just feel empty and aren't able to do anything about it and you've tried a lot of things. Then I think you should be able to give it up without feeling guilty. Think about it, donating your life to someone else is very akin to having a child. But if you are not feeling any joy in your life, then if you donate YOUR life to someone else then they would feel no joy either. So it's not really a good thing.

And you don't really need to feel ungrateful. When you ask for something and you're given it but aren't thankful then you aren't being grateful. But life was given to you on someone else's whim.Wait it out. I'm doing the same thing. I'm waiting. I don't treat life carelessly. I don't think life is to be treated carelessly. However. If you just aren't happy for a very long time, then the right decision would be to end it. Think about it. Life isn't something you just get up and it comes to you. You have to get out of bed, make food, have food, take a bath, brush your teeth. You have to do a million things every day just to live. It's a lot of effort. In life, effort is only worth it imo if you gain something from that effort. At some point it makes sense to just gracefully end it.

 

[Papa Shinai]

Yes it sucks so much. I am living for the sake of my family too but I don't care anymore, I'll do it once I am sure about it. They shouldn't have had procreated mindlessly, what a stupid move, causing me to suffer in the end.

 

[BlooBerryBanjo3000]

I don't enjoy life either. There's just no joy for me anymore. I have a decent family, I have money, I own my own home. Lot of other good things in my life, but I just feel a lack of joy, the inability to be happy. That being said, I think each person's life is only their own. If you just feel empty and aren't able to do anything about it and you've tried a lot of things. Then I think you should be able to give it up without feeling guilty. Think about it, donating your life to someone else is very akin to having a child. But if you are not feeling any joy in your life, then if you donate YOUR life to someone else then they would feel no joy either. So it's not really a good thing.

And you don't really need to feel ungrateful. When you ask for something and you're given it but aren't thankful then you aren't being grateful. But life was given to you on someone else's whim.Wait it out. I'm doing the same thing. I'm waiting. I don't treat life carelessly. I don't think life is to be treated carelessly. However. If you just aren't happy for a very long time, then the right decision would be to end it. Think about it. Life isn't something you just get up and it comes to you. You have to get out of bed, make food, have food, take a bath, brush your teeth. You have to do a million things every day just to live. It's a lot of effort. In life, effort is only worth it imo if you gain something from that effort. At some point it makes sense to just gracefully end it.

I agree with you 100%.

If you just feel empty and aren't able to do anything about it and you've tried a lot of things. Then I think you should be able to give it up without feeling guilty.

Yeah, I've tried to do lots of things and they either didn't do anything, or they never seem to last. Either way, not worth it to me.

If you just aren't happy for a very long time, then the right decision would be to end it.

It does suck that happiness never lasts, and that I eventually go right back to feeling like life isn't worth living anymore. But honestly, I don't think I'll ever be truly happy based on me knowing and seeing life for what it truly is. So even if I did find something/somethings to distract myself from reality, they still wouldn't be enough to keep me happy for long and make life seem worth living.

 

[bankai]

Our time will come. Just wait for it. No need to force it though. I did think about things like how my mother would feel, my sister would feel, etcetera. But not anymore. They're not living my life, they're living theirs. I'm the one who's got to deal with my life.Life is so mundane. So pointless.