Leaving SaSu

[25jiyuki]

Finally, I'm free from abusive family. So I'm on a path to recovery again. Will things work out? I don't know, and I could end up right back on this site. But something feels different this time. I feel like I'm not stuck anymore, I want to try a bit longer. And I want to thank you all.

The level of suffering that drove me to this site is something I wouldn't wish on anyone. This place felt like warmth, it gave me a space to talk about things I can't share with most people. When I spoke about suicide here, people understood and emphasized with me. When I spoke about recovering, people encouraged and wished me well. Some things commented on my posts really changed my mindset, in a good way. I love this space.

But I'm leaving because I want to close this chapter in my life. My heart goes out to all of you and I wish you happiness, and peace. This is gonna sound really silly if I end up here again someday, but I'm hoping that won't happen. I'm working hard on myself. I'll be logging off after reading post replies.

Goodbye

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

goodbye
wish you the best

 

[TBONTB]

Finally, I'm free from abusive family. So I'm on a path to recovery again. Will things work out? I don't know, and I could end up right back on this site. But something feels different this time. I feel like I'm not stuck anymore, I want to try a bit longer. And I want to thank you all.

The level of suffering that drove me to this site is something I wouldn't wish on anyone. This place felt like warmth, it gave me a space to talk about things I can't share with most people. When I spoke about suicide here, people understood and emphasized with me. When I spoke about recovering, people encouraged and wished me well. Some things commented on my posts really changed my mindset, in a good way. I love this space.

But I'm leaving because I want to close this chapter in my life. My heart goes out to all of you and I wish you happiness, and peace. This is gonna sound really silly if I end up here again someday, but I'm hoping that won't happen. I'm working hard on myself. I'll be logging off after reading post replies.

Goodbye

Hip-hip-hooray! I'm just delighted you've found a way, at least for now, forward. Glad to hear you are working hard and make progress. And glad to hear that the forum was a place for recovery too.

Life isn't a straight line (boy howdy) so sometime you will feel down again. I hope you never feel so down again, and that next time you will remember you had the strength to make it through!!!

 

[Anura]

Good luck for whatever you have ahead of you!! Wishing you the best and I'm glad to hear you're able to move on to a new chapter of your life

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[EternalShore]

I'm glad you were able to get out of your awful situations with your parents and are now able to pursue true recovery! ^_^ I wish you the absolute best and hope things continue improving for you! :D anyways, farewell, and I hope you enjoy the rest of your life and aren't forced to come back here! :)

 

[memento-mori]

good luck to u
it's good to see that recovery is possible

 

[theboy]

Oh
Hope u are wel

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

Congratulations! I'm glad to hear that you find the path to recovery. It's just ok to come back though it's the best that this site is never needed for you. It does not mean your weakness. I hope you find your happiness in your life.

 

[BradGuy123]

I'm so glad your life is better now. I wish you all the best.

 

[kazatte]

hello fellow mafuyu pfp!! we've never interacted and i don't exactly know you but i am so happy for you and i wish you the best in recovery :) i believe in you and i am proud of you!!

 

[Lions303]

Wishing you all the best! I believe in you and proud of how far you've come and the journey your about to endure. Stay safe :)

 

[nuva]

i wish you the best in your new chapter of life.

 

[25jiyuki]

good luck to u
it's good to see that recovery is possible

this reply kind of made me tear up. Yes, the fact that I'm still alive proves it is possible.

 

[paranoidpeasant]

I'm leaving SaSu as well!!!

I'm not trying to hijack this thread. I just don't think I need to start a new thread over the same topic.

I've found purpose in attempting to better my situation. I'll probably always look forward to not existing some day... But I can quit damaging my organs over it now.

THANK YOU for all the stories!! For honest advice!! For the reality check!!

I apologize for all my toxic, unhelpful, rude or unkind posts. I honestly meant well. I honestly did my best... I wanted to start a thread just to apologize when I said good bye, but instead I'm going to see if I can't just do that privately.

THIS FORUM has changed the way I will approach my problems... It's changed the way I see ctb... You've changed the course of my life. I am very, very grateful!!

For a second I thought about keeping the account, just to lurk, but that is deeply shameful, people are looking for much needed relief. I was, too, but for me my relief is going to have to come from following this journey through to the end. I am grateful to know that if it continues on it's current trajectory that I'll be able to find solutions then. Years of self harm wasn't the solution I thought it was...

To change my mind about ctb means that I need to approach life differently... To grow instead of damage my organs following TV solutions...

THANK YOU SO MUCH!! It's nice to have the space to explore my options, to get honest and clear advice about the consequences of those options, and to know that there are many, many, many people who experience the same types of experiences... I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!

I'm very, very sorry if I caused anyone to suffer more. I suck at interactions. I have a reason, now, to develop myself as a person and to try to find a better way forward, given my situation and resources.

 

[KinderEgg]

Congrats! I hope things continue to get better for you.

 

[darksouls]

good luck

 

[shampoo sniffer]

Happy for you
from a random internet stranger

 

[rururiruru]

good to hear that, happy for you

 

[DirtCommie]

Thank you and bye. Glad that youbwere able to finally get your own place away from your abusive family! Doesnt every peacrful person deserve theur own place away from abusive people?...

 

[25jiyuki]

seriously crying reading through this thread, I love all of you

 

[EternalShore]

seriously crying reading through this thread, I love all of you

I'm glad you feel appreciated, and I truly hope it's been going well for you since you left~ :)

 

[Asahina]

I'm happy for you, fellow Mafuyu enjoyer o7