leaving pets behind :(

[redhouse]

my dog is one of my last sources of happiness right now. he's perfect and innocent and loves me unconditionally which no human could ever do. i feel awful about lea him when i ctb. i know he'll be safe and fed and will have family to love him but i hate the thought that he wouldn't know what happened to me.would it make hime loose trust in people and worry they will disappear too. when im gone i wont have control over what happens to him and wont know if he's suffering its just awful.
nothing can be done about this i just wanted to share and see if others have been through this. thanks for reading

 

[hunterfla]

my dog is one of my last sources of happiness right now. he's perfect and innocent and loves me unconditionally which no human could ever do. i feel awful about lea him when i ctb. i know he'll be safe and fed and will have family to love him but i hate the thought that he wouldn't know what happened to me.would it make hime loose trust in people and worry they will disappear too. when im gone i wont have control over what happens to him and wont know if he's suffering its just awful.
nothing can be done about this i just wanted to share and see if others have been through this. thanks for reading

This is exactly how I feel - I couldn't have said it better. I adopted my dog almost 2 years ago when I was in the height of depression. I felt guilt at first, knowing that I was suicidal, but I really needed a reason to live and he literally kept me going for 2 years. When I first got him, I could tell he was confused about where his previous owners were, but we became inseparable almost instantly. I know that when I ctb soon (planning this weekend) he will be confused again, and the thing that kills me (no pun intended) is that he might think I didn't want him anymore. I know he will be taken care of, but there will be a period between when I ctb and when I am found (I live alone with him) that he will definitely be confused. I plan to leave more than enough food and water for him but I just hope he doesn't hate me for leaving him. I can't even look at him now without crying.

 

[HerBetrayal_]

I was going to try and ctb the other night but i couldnt get anyone to take my cat, and i cant even think about leaving him with nothing to eat or drink while i lay rotting waiting to be found.

 

[Nathan2]

my dog is one of my last sources of happiness right now. he's perfect and innocent and loves me unconditionally which no human could ever do. i feel awful about lea him when i ctb. i know he'll be safe and fed and will have family to love him but i hate the thought that he wouldn't know what happened to me.would it make hime loose trust in people and worry they will disappear too. when im gone i wont have control over what happens to him and wont know if he's suffering its just awful.
nothing can be done about this i just wanted to share and see if others have been through this. thanks for reading

Think about how sad you would be without your dog, i think the same applies for him. I know you might already see ctb as the last and probably only option but is it not worth (if not only just for the dog) too try and go too therapy. This kind of forum can worsen your feelings. Id strongly suggest getting therapy + leaving this forum for atleast a week. If not for yourself do it for your dog.

 

[@RedRum]

my dog is one of my last sources of happiness right now. he's perfect and innocent and loves me unconditionally which no human could ever do. i feel awful about lea him when i ctb. i know he'll be safe and fed and will have family to love him but i hate the thought that he wouldn't know what happened to me.would it make hime loose trust in people and worry they will disappear too. when im gone i wont have control over what happens to him and wont know if he's suffering its just awful.
nothing can be done about this i just wanted to share and see if others have been through this. thanks for reading

Why are you wanting CTB?

 

[alienoforces]

This is exactly how I feel about my cats. Both came into my life unexpectedly but both have been the light of my life since they've came to me. I worry about who will take care of them, or if someone will every truly love them as much as i do. I'm afraid they wont be shown the same love that i have given them since they could barely open their eyes. they are the only things that have truly kept me going and i decided that when they go, i go. It's the very least i could do for them. I consider my pets the closest thing i will ever have to children and I'll be damned if i CTB and nobody else gives them the home they deserve. I know they would get separated, even though they are heavily bonded, and i cannot bear to do that to them. I SOB at the thought of leaving any of my pets behind fr fr.