Last year i was finally happy for the 1st time in my life now I want to CTB again

[FireFox]

Last year I was finally happy because things were beginning to get better particularly after October. It was so amazing experiencing real happiness.

On October I went travelling to Venice, awesome holiday ever,and then when I came back to the UK I got a job interview. In November I met the older male work colleague and I thought he was amazing( how wrong i was). I had the most amazing Christmas ever . Christmas day was so fun with the family. On boxing day I went to see Avatar way of the water in 4D and it was so awesome.

For the 1st time in my life i actually began to love myself , looking forward to the future and I finally wanted to live. Fast forward to 2023 everything in my life is a mess and it's all my fault along with things beyond my control. I fucked it all up. I just want to die because I will never see myself ever being happy again and seeing things getting better. I fucked up so badly at 25. I just want all the pain to stop

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just so awful how what we go through in life can very easily get much worse, I just think that after all life really is so unfair and disappointing and I believe that if someone has something that they see as being positive it will eventually just be taken away from them and lead to more suffering. I'm sorry that you are trapped in this situation.

 

[downndone2]

I was really bad off for about 2 years then had a 6 month period of feeling better. Now another setback and I'm worse off now more than ever.

 

[FireFox]

I was really bad off for about 2 years then had a 6 month period of feeling better. Now another setback and I'm worse off now more than ever.

@downndone2 Virtual hug I am so sorry this happened. I really hope things work out for you.

Society judges the people who kill themselves but they never see that persons determination to live and fight to make things work out when they were alive. Right now all I want is to die. I really wanted things to work out but this year one thing after another keeps going wrong it's so frustrating