Last few days ahead (goodbye)

[toms_space_station]

Hey, everyone. Big thanks those of you who have been kind to me and to others here in ss. I wish I could've mustered up the energy to give back to the community, to be social and to be a friend to those who need it. But like many of us, i'm falling apart and i am tired of fighting it. I've decided i'm going with my salty drink attempt. Unfortunately it can't take place tonight, i live in a small apartment and my family is here. So I will update which opportunity arrives first: there will either be an entire day/night that I have the apartment to myself, or a day i get money and go to a hotel. One of these opportunities will come inevitably and (hopefully) shortly.

This is a rough draft for now, the timestamps are just to help me structure this out. Will add more details or changes if needed as the day gets closer:

00:00 - Stop eating food
06:00 - Stop intake of water
edit*07:00 - 600mg of Ibuprofen
edit*07:30 - Antacid Milk of Magnesia (Originally planned on going with out this, but I changed my mind. going to pick this up asap)
08:00 - Prepare mix: 2 or more cups 20g SN in 50ml of water and drink

I doubt that it will be painless. If there is any, I'm willing to accept and consider it well deserved.
Going through my files, looking for anything of interest (pictures, music projects, documents) before resetting.
If i have the energy, i'm donating some clothes to a church. Hope some of my stuff could be of use to somebody.
It's been feeling real for a long time. Been thinking a lot about the transition. Going from an emotional living, conscious human being, to a dead lifeless corpse. I wonder if dying is anything like what some of us here who have left expected it to be.

Hopefully this works out. Thank you for taking the time to read. I'm off to bed, but I know there's going to be some sleepless nights ahead. (unintentional rhyme)

Will update when needed

 

[MiseryLovesMyCompany]

I'm sorry that thing have come to this for you.
However, your schedule seems a bit off. You take the other meds much sooner than recommended.

 

[Deleted member 13412]

hi ss friend , i hope so much it wont be painful for u and that once on the other side u will be free to fly away from this trap called life.. <3

 

[woxihuanni]

I wish you peace, same and it is scary.

 

[Deleted member 13412]

I'm sorry that thing have come to this for you.
However, your schedule seems a bit off. You take the other meds much sooner than recommended.

ye i agree , idk abt ibuprofen but antiacid should be 30 min before sn

 

[toms_space_station]

I'm sorry that thing have come to this for you.
However, your schedule seems a bit off. You take the other meds much sooner than recommended.

I figured , im just desperate at this point. which one(s) i should reconsider?

ye i agree , idk abt ibuprofen but antiacid should be 30 min before sn

thanks. its been a long night.

 

[MiseryLovesMyCompany]

I figured , im just desperate at this point. which one(s) i should reconsider?

just follow Stan's Guide

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

Ibuprofen 1h before, antacid 30min before

 

[toms_space_station]

Thanks for the clarification, I must have missed that somehow.

 

[sadworld]

I wish you a fast and peaceful journey

 

[grungeCat]

I wish you quick and painless travel.

 

[Cursed4ever]

I Wish You Nothing But a Peaceful And Painless Travel Buddy
Big Hug Mate
See You at Other End

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I wish you peace.

 

[stygal]

Didn't get to know you since I haven't been around for long - but still: Safe, quick and painless travels and a peaceful stay at the other side <3

 

[Noriv159]

Good luck on your journey.

 

[Meditation guide]

It's been feeling real for a long time. Been thinking a lot about the transition. Going from an emotional living, conscious human being, to a dead lifeless corpse. I wonder if dying is anything like what some of us here who have left expected it to be.

I think it's going to be interesting to say the least, if we do indeed live on only without our meat suit. I have a feeling most of us will say Thank God it's over!

 

[Silver]

@toms_space_station it's been good to see you occasionally in chat. Hope everything goes smoothly.

 

[toms_space_station]

Update 3:16 pm: Managed to go to the pharmacy today and picked up the last thing I needed. Now I just have to wait.

 

[Umbrellaterm]

You're aware antacid can prolong the time until loss of consciousness?

 

[rt1989526]

You're aware antacid can prolong the time until loss of consciousness?

Antacid reduces stomach acid which will increase the amount absorbed into intestines. The faster it is absorbed = faster you lose consciousness and ctb.

Where are you getting this information?

 

[Umbrellaterm]

Antacid reduces stomach acid which will increase the amount absorbed into intestines. The faster it is absorbed = faster you lose consciousness and ctb.

Where are you getting this information?

Oh, did I mix it up with something else? Isn't it antacid or is it H2 blocker? Trying to find the info

 

[NA90]

Update 3:16 pm: Managed to go to the pharmacy today and picked up the last thing I needed. Now I just have to wait.View attachment 49731

Hello, how much of that do you have to drink?

 

[Kramer]

Enjoy Valhalla, life warrior.

 

[toms_space_station]

Update: Everything s prepared. In the car now. Going to prepare my two cups and drink in about half an hour. This post is old since so much shit derailed my original plan. If I am able to I will try to detail what I am feeling. Thank you everyone

 

[sephlove]

just follow Stan's Guide

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

Ibuprofen 1h before, antacid 30min before

Was wondering if NOT taking Ibuprofen was a bad idea? I have had bad experience in the past taking ibuprofen on an empty stomach. But wondering if the antacid like cimetidine would counter-act any of the negatives?

 

[PeacefulDarkness]

I wish you a peaceful exit brother. See you on the other side.

 

[sephlove]

I hope you the utmost peace and painless journey

 

[sadworld]

Update: Everything s prepared. In the car now. Going to prepare my two cups and drink in about half an hour. This post is old since so much shit derailed my original plan. If I am able to I will try to detail what I am feeling. Thank you everyone

Safe travels! I hope you'll find peace!

 

[Sensei]

Update: Everything s prepared. In the car now. Going to prepare my two cups and drink in about half an hour. This post is old since so much shit derailed my original plan. If I am able to I will try to detail what I am feeling. Thank you everyone

I don't know you, sadly. I'm sorry that it has come to this, though. You seem determined and I assume you have thought this through thoroughly. If you nevertheless feel any doubt, remember that there's no shame in changing your mind. The option to end it on your own terms won't disappear if you postpone your exit now. If you decide to go through with it, sleep well.

 

[self.destractive]

sendin virtual hugs your way, amigo
sorry its come to this

 

[profoundexperience]

@toms_space_station, may I please wholeheartedly offer you this Buddhist prayer of lovingkindness now -- for this very moment -- and for whatever may come...

May you be free of suffering, @toms_space_station.
May you have mental happiness, @toms_space_station.
May you have physical happiness, @toms_space_station.
May you have ease of well being, @toms_space_station.