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Meaninglesslife
Sep 13, 2024
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Hello everybody. I had said said already that I made a schedule for me to CTB within the following weeks.Now plans can change or accidents can happen. I have already posted a summary of my life story. Now I just wanna add some things to what was the best time of my life; my time working on a cruise line.

There was just so many reasons I love and hate that job. It was mostly love. I mean I get paid, mostly working so my mind was distracted, I saw the world, and the best for me; long times away from my family. I had the perfect excuse to not communicate with them and just be far away from them. I loved it. I was happy. I met new people from different countries and I get to taste different foods. I want to really stress that I was away from my family. I really don't hate them, but I just can't help but feel I was just not part of it. I was distant and introverted. They may not have understood that.

At times I just really wanted to be away. My job at a ship was just the near perfect haven for me. Of course as a job you'll find things and people to hate there, but the good parts easily overweighed the bad, and i really miss it. The damn pandemic ruined it for me. I wish I could go back, but I already crossed that road. I can't turn back. If I had one wish, I wish I can go back to that job. Screw my physical limits and whatever my family wants, I wish to go back there.

I'll update when I feel like it. I can feel the chord on my neck.
 
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