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amerie

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Oct 6, 2024
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Is it just me, but as the years go by, "kys" starts to feel less like an insult but a compliment? And whenever I'm mad at someone online I don't tell them to CTB but rather "I hope you live a miserable life" or something along the lines of living in constant suffering unable to die?

Death just seems like the ultimate paradise for me, I don't believe in the afterlife but damn being permanently unconscious sounds great. I don't understand why humans see it as something to avoid when we should treat life like a movie, we go with the flow and if something happens it happens. We shouldn't fight to escape death.

Just some thoughts
 
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tirednwired

in the end everybody loses
Oct 28, 2024
43
I wouldn't say I see it as a compliment, but I agree with u about death and "kys" definitely doesn't bother me anymore. It's like, yeah, that's the plan one day, lol.
 
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amerie

Warlock
Oct 6, 2024
749
I wouldn't say I see it as a compliment, but I agree with u about death and "kys" definitely doesn't bother me anymore. It's like, yeah, that's the plan one day, lol.
I fight the urge to respond with "I really hope you successfully kill yourself" under peoples vents bc I know I'd get cancelled for it but omg I'd much rather hear that then "I'm here if you need to talk!"

Shut up.
 
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lann.371

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May 15, 2024
25
Kinda true, the miserable life is just way worse then to "kys" like that's so much nicer.
 
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oneeyed

Arcanist
Oct 11, 2022
435
For those of us who have tried (even multiple times) we can confidently respond with "I tried but my body is too stubborn"
 
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sariff

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May 27, 2024
17
you are right that it is better than prolonged suffering till you die.
John McAfee ctb'ed for that reason at the age of 75. I guess life doesnt get better.
 
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ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
I agree so much. Honestly, I'd be even more pissed if they said to me "I hope you become immortal and live forever". I don't see "kys" as an insult as I want to be dead but unfortunately I don't know how to kill myself
 
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NeoN0va

beyond the end with you
Sep 24, 2024
205
I cant disagree with you all. I hate it when people wish me to live a long life, because long life means that you get to see most of your friends, family members and others die. Death would bring peace, unless heaven and hell really does exist and I somehow end up in hell.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,218
Agree . I would wish for an enemy to live and grow old . To me living and life is the worst thing.

I wish someone would encourage me to kill myself . That's what I'm trying to do make me kill myself, win the battle in my brain. Nobody has encouraged me to kill myself only to stay alive
 
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amerie

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Oct 6, 2024
749
Agree . I would wish for an enemy to live and grow old . To me living and life is the worst thing.

I wish someone would encourage me to kill myself . That's what I'm trying to do make me kill myself, win the battle in my brain. Nobody has encouraged me to kill myself only to stay alive
Literally I want to be told "I hope you pass successfully" or something idk why but it sounds so peaceful
 
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