Knowing your time has arrived…

[33K1LLM3]

'When you know, you know'- was a line said in Margaret by LDR. It's not the most creative line but it's something we as potential ctber's should get to know ourselves.

I always thought I knew, back when I was 10 I thought I knew. But really I didn't. I know because I look back at all these things I have listed:

If you know it's your time, you don't just keep putting it off because you think you can do it another time, another day, another week or month, or year. No my friend, your not ready just yet.

You also know if you haven't understood your method yet. If you choose a method and you know what to do, then how can you properly ctb, how do you know your gonna be ok to ctb? How would you feel when you ctb?

And then yet again you know if you haven't done all you have wanted to do before you do it. I mean some you aren't gonna be able to do, and that's realistic, but surely you would want to spend your last few days, doing the stuff you love, enjoying what is left of your life. When you do it and you haven't done those things, would you feel regret, would it makes things more upsetting?

There is no shame putting off your ctb, because if your not ready, your not gonna feel peace in your choice, your gonna feel scared, worried, petrified, all these emotions, that just show that maybe not yet.

That's ok, Suicide can never be rushed, if you rush, you become restless, when you are restless, you are erratic, and when you are erratic, you become desperate, then you do stuff you regret, you realise that it wasn't your time, you didn't set a proper date, you didn't get to know the method you were using, and then you didn't get to do all the stuff you wanted to before you did it. And you don't want that, you want happiness in your choice and relief. And that's something that is hard to learn, but it can be learned quickly and naturally, you just can just feel it.

So I know now that it's my time, and making sure I'm ready is how I will prepare for that time, I don't feel pressured, or forced, I feel kinda excited that soon I will some kind of peace, maybe a second chance at life, I don't know.

But like I said, when it comes to you ctb, you will know when it's your time, and you won't look back on it. You will be able to spend your last few moments not feeling terror or scared, you will feel a sense of joy knowing it will soon be over. That's for you to find out dearest SaSu reader, take your time, because when you know, you know, and that's your choice to make, please make a good one <3

 

[dearlydeparted44]

I must commend you. This is, in my opinion, one of the best posts ever written in this site's history. This is such a truthful and freeing post. No nonsense, honest, and comforting. Thank you, so much, for such a beautiful, comforting, and truthful post. I know a post like this won't get much attention, as a lot of people on here just simply aren't ready nor serious. However, you've got a thumbs up from me. I hope you find peace, as I am about to soon.

Thank you!!!