flightlessbutterfly
Mindless Wanderer
- Jun 25, 2023
- 51
I steal. Not often, just occasionally. Initially when I was younger and far more innocent, I thought that it was because I just had impulses to take and keep things that are pretty or shiny or just interesting and curious. Nowadays, I understand it a bit more— or at least I think so.
The things I stole are generally insignificant, a tiny Shinobu chibi figurine in a ziplock bag being sold for five times its value (I checked), a circular hand mirror that has a blurry reflection and looks handmade, a pair of lgbtqia pins that would be looked at as disgusting here in my country. At first I thought it was just something I did, maybe because I wanted it and I didn't have the money to get it. Now I just feel like stealing those things in particular was just a roundabout way for my brain to tell me that I was doing it to make myself feel better for my lack of image. I have lost my identity and sense of self long ago, and stealing things that give me even the slightest bouts of joy would help me feel better about living and being myself. I don't know, at this point, I have stopped giving two shits and am going to continue snatching small things that make me happy even for a split second.
The things I stole are generally insignificant, a tiny Shinobu chibi figurine in a ziplock bag being sold for five times its value (I checked), a circular hand mirror that has a blurry reflection and looks handmade, a pair of lgbtqia pins that would be looked at as disgusting here in my country. At first I thought it was just something I did, maybe because I wanted it and I didn't have the money to get it. Now I just feel like stealing those things in particular was just a roundabout way for my brain to tell me that I was doing it to make myself feel better for my lack of image. I have lost my identity and sense of self long ago, and stealing things that give me even the slightest bouts of joy would help me feel better about living and being myself. I don't know, at this point, I have stopped giving two shits and am going to continue snatching small things that make me happy even for a split second.
