thebunny
be what they fear.
- Aug 19, 2022
- 227
hi! feel free to read this... or don't. i just need an outlet, really.
anywho, as some of you may know, i've been planning my exit for almost 3 months now. i've planned to go around the fourth week of october, which is around two weeks from now. i already have everything i need and i'm just patiently waiting for my d-day. everything is going according to plan... or so i thought.
one of the issues that came up was that i'm supposed to fly abroad back to my parents within this year so my visa doesn't expire. their plan was that i'll fly around december. at first i thought, "hm, that's alright. i mean, i'll be gone soon anyway. they don't have to worry about the ticket and all." WRONG. they wanted to book a flight now, so the fare would be cheaper than usual, which i understand completely.
i feel so guilty about it all because i'd be wasting their money on a ticket that will not be used. worse of it all, i'd be wasting their money again on my funeral. i don't have much savings to cover any of those things.
i feel so bad, but at the same time, i badly need to ctb because i can't pretend to function any longer.
everything has become too much for me to bear and handle. i want my well-deserved peace >:(
anywho, as some of you may know, i've been planning my exit for almost 3 months now. i've planned to go around the fourth week of october, which is around two weeks from now. i already have everything i need and i'm just patiently waiting for my d-day. everything is going according to plan... or so i thought.
one of the issues that came up was that i'm supposed to fly abroad back to my parents within this year so my visa doesn't expire. their plan was that i'll fly around december. at first i thought, "hm, that's alright. i mean, i'll be gone soon anyway. they don't have to worry about the ticket and all." WRONG. they wanted to book a flight now, so the fare would be cheaper than usual, which i understand completely.
i feel so guilty about it all because i'd be wasting their money on a ticket that will not be used. worse of it all, i'd be wasting their money again on my funeral. i don't have much savings to cover any of those things.
i feel so bad, but at the same time, i badly need to ctb because i can't pretend to function any longer.
everything has become too much for me to bear and handle. i want my well-deserved peace >:(