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StaringIntoAnAbyss

StaringIntoAnAbyss

Is it all just a quantum dream ?
Aug 23, 2023
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what the fng fuck? the only thing he murdered was peoples wallet.
The system is absolutely fucked, they shouldn't do it like this they should start at the root of the problem and maybe fix the fucking mental health care so people don't Have to feel like nothing will get better and think suicide is the last option.
 
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searchingforpeace

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dude should have been rewarded for his service.
The system is absolutely fucked, they shouldn't do it like this they should start at the root of the problem and maybe fix the fucking mental health care so people don't Have to feel like nothing will get better and think suicide is the last option.
There is no mental health system. That's just a delusion that people Without mental illness tell themselves to justify why they should pop out a million more kids for no reason. People continue to believe there's answers to things there's no answers to
The system is absolutely fucked, they shouldn't do it like this they should start at the root of the problem and maybe fix the fucking mental health care so people don't Have to feel like nothing will get better and think suicide is the last option.
There is no mental health system. That's just a delusion that people Without mental illness tell themselves to justify why they should pop out a million more kids for no reason. People continue to believe there's answers to things there's no answers to
 
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He would have been my angel.. I'm not surprised they're looking at him as the scape goat excuse as opposed to why their kids contacted him In the first place.
 
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dude should have been rewarded for his service.

There is no mental health system. That's just a delusion that people Without mental illness tell themselves to justify why they should pop out a million more kids for no reason. People continue to believe there's answers to things there's no answers to
I live in the Netherlands so I don't know how it is for you but we have a mental help system called ggz but it's absolutely fucked, not enough people, not enough time and not enough expertise. So it's almost as if we don't have a system because it's so bad.
I also believe in absurdism but it's just sad that some people really would want to live but just can't because they don't have the help. So I think they should have the choice to have help.
 
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searchingforpeace

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every single fucking thing in this reality is upside down.
 
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I don't profess to be any type of legal expert but I don't understand this unless it's being done to instill fear in any and all potential suppliers so that supply becomes globally restricted.

Unless they have documented evidence of him actively coercing or encouraging purchasers to ingest the product with intention to kill themselves I'm not sure how he can be charged this way?

How is it different from a gun shop selling a firearm to someone who then uses it to ctb? The seller didn't force the purchaser to do so in either scenario, and if purchasers do not disclose intent for use then how would a supplier be culpable?

I know law is more complex and I knew they'd pin something on him but I don't understand how they're managing to bring murder charges against him. 😞
 
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Such an evil world we exist in. What that individual did was very compassionate and prevented so much unnecessary suffering. And anyway the right to die is a human right, it's so hellish and just wrong how it's a crime to provide ways for humans to reliably die in peace. Sadly many humans want to make it so others suffer as much as possible for as long as possible, with the only ways to cease existing on our own terms being risky and agonising.
 
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I don't profess to be any type of legal expert but I don't understand this unless it's being done to instill fear in any and all potential suppliers so that supply becomes globally restricted.

Unless they have documented evidence of him actively coercing or encouraging purchasers to ingest the product with intention to kill themselves I'm not sure how he can be charged this way?

How is it different from a gun shop selling a firearm to someone who then uses it to ctb? The seller didn't force the purchaser to do so in either scenario, and if purchasers do not disclose intent for use then how would a supplier be culpable?

I know law is more complex and I knew they'd pin something on him but I don't understand how they're managing to bring murder charges against him. 😞

From what I read on another thread here before, he was also keeping email contact with some of the people he was selling stuff to, giving them instructions etc, how to use. I don't know if that's true, but if that's the case he was really dumb to do so, and left himself open to serious charges.
 
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From what I read on another thread here before, he was also keeping email contact with some of the people he was selling stuff to, giving them instructions etc, how to use. I don't know if that's true, but if that's the case he was really dumb to do so, and left himself open to serious charges.
Thanks for the info, if he was doing that it makes a bit more sense why they'd have legal grounds to pursue more significant charges. Hadn't followed too much of the case because so much in the media is exaggerated and sensationalised.
 
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dude should have been rewarded for his service.

There is no mental health system. That's just a delusion that people Without mental illness tell themselves to justify why they should pop out a million more kids for no reason. People continue to believe there's answers to things there's no answers to

There is no mental health system. That's just a delusion that people Without mental illness tell themselves to justify why they should pop out a million more kids for no reason. People continue to believe there's answers to things there's no answers to

The mental health services I've been using have been so bad I've begun to think they are like it on purpose, so eventually the patient will think "FFS I'm going to have to deal this myself because these bastards are fucking useless."

Just this week I've been referred to 3 more places on top of the 6 people I'm having regular appointments with. For all it is costing the taxpayer, they might as well have given me £500 a month to keep me on top of my bills so I can focus on finding work without worrying about being able to pay bills.
 
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The mental health services I've been using have been so bad I've begun to think they are like it on purpose, so eventually the patient will think "FFS I'm going to have to deal this myself because these bastards are fucking useless."

Just this week I've been referred to 3 more places on top of the 6 people I'm having regular appointments with. For all it is costing the taxpayer, they might as well have given me £500 a month to keep me on top of my bills so I can focus on finding work without worrying about being able to pay bills.
Are you U.K.? I'm really surprised you've had engagement and referrals to so many sources at all (no matter how inadequate). For me it's always a case of gp gatekeeping and only throwing drugs at me. I think because I've lived with varying degrees of suicidal ideation / intent for a long time, tried multiple ineffectual "therapies" that never worked, they've given up. Unless I make an attempt that fucks up so bad I have no choice but to be in hospital I honestly don't think I'll ever even be offered psyche team engagement again. 😑
 
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Such an evil world we exist in. What that individual did was very compassionate and prevented so much unnecessary suffering. And anyway the right to die is a human right, it's so hellish and just wrong how it's a crime to provide ways for humans to reliably die in peace. Sadly many humans want to make it so others suffer as much as possible for as long as possible, with the only ways to cease existing on our own terms being risky and agonising.
I know tell me about it. Makes me fucking laugh how everything is so fucking expensive now too. I'm never going to do well for myself because im a woman dumb and I'm fucked in the head what is even the point of trying. I don't want to try anymore I hate everything dont want kids nothing truly to live for. Can't even become a monk because im a woman.
 
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Are you U.K.? I'm really surprised you've had engagement and referrals to so many sources at all (no matter how inadequate). For me it's always a case of gp gatekeeping and only throwing drugs at me. I think because I've lived with varying degrees of suicidal ideation / intent for a long time, tried multiple ineffectual "therapies" that never worked, they've given up. Unless I make an attempt that fucks up so bad I have no choice but to be in hospital I honestly don't think I'll ever even be offered psyche team engagement again. 😑
Yes UK. It might be because of specifics to my situation but when I first noticed problems it was in 2019 and my GP didn't seem interested in helping me much. At the end of the year a nurse said I was siuffering from PTSD and to get help with it ASPS after surgery I was having. I spoke to mp GP, who sent me to talkworks who said I was suffering from Depression and Anxiety and referred me back to my GP. That was it until I tried to ctb last year. Then that is when I started to get help but even then it was one Therpaist (suicide and self harm) who referred me back to Talkworks who I told I was still struggling and was being mistreated in my new workplace too and I was struggling to handle it, so they passed me back to my GP who then referred me to the community wellbeing team and that is where all these referrals have all stemmed from this year.

So I think I understand what you mean by your GP gatekeeping. Sometimes it seems like someone else needs to push the GP into doing something and other times it doesn't seem to matter. I think with some of the appointments I am having, I'm seeing different people for the same help. But even one person I saw a couple of weeks ago asked about when I had my memory tested (because I told her keeping notes and reminders doesn't help because I still forget the minute I've acknowledged the reminder) and I said I have nbever had one done and she said she assumed from everything I had told her over our appointments, that I was speaking of my poor memory from the perspective of it being an acknowledged health problem. I said No, I'm trying to tell everyone because I seem to be ignored each time. I'm hoping someone will one day get me help that focuses purely on diagnosing what is causing that and she said she had just thought my GP would have dealt with it back in 2020 and she thinks that is how otehr people are treating me - like I have gone through all the 'formal diagnosis'. I reiterated to her again, that I have no 'formal diagnosis' of anything, I have simply been told in conversations by professionals that I have one thing or another and they have told me to get help, I'm trying to get the 'formal diagnosis' and no one is listening to me. I'm "screaming out" and getting so angry and frustrated because I've never had any tests done but I know I should have done by now.

So she has got back to a therpaist at the self harm centre to write to my GP saying to send me for a memory test. But It's down to my GP whether he does or not. I had confirmation they'd sent that letter a few days ago from the therapist over the phone and again she said that she thought I'd had all these things done.

Obviously, I don't know of the differences in our problems but maybe with you it is that they've 'dropped' you because they cannot see you ever being in a better position from them, and maybe with me there is a belief I just need help with getting decent work and the rest could be worked with aswell. I mean they do say they know I am still capable of performing well in work despite what is going on, so do you feel that you are at an absolute 'dead end' with everything yourself, in that you don't feel you could ever work again, or you function so badly you will always need help? If so, maybe it's because they only help people, like myself if they believe it is going to be easy for them. certainly most of the people I am dealing with keep saying they are only supposed to be 'short term' help. So I wonder if you can only go through the cycle once and then they just don't bother with you and you will have to pay for further help, and this is why they have dropped you.
I know tell me about it. Makes me fucking laugh how everything is so fucking expensive now too. I'm never going to do well for myself because im a woman dumb and I'm fucked in the head what is even the point of trying. I don't want to try anymore I hate everything dont want kids nothing truly to live for. Can't even become a monk because im a woman.

I had to tell my mortgage lender I couldn't pay and so had to go through my finances with them. I don't really spend on things I don't need, so for example, I don't pay for netflix or anything like that. My mobile phone has 2 SIMs that I get free data and minutes each month so I don't have a monthly bill for that. I've only driven 4000 miles in a year so fuel costs are low.

But my expenses were still £1300 before I even thought about holidays and clothing. I think national minimum wage comes out at less than that. So single people on minimum wage just cannot live, which is a far cry from when I was growing up and only one parent needed to work to afford all the outgoings for the whole family.
 
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Yes UK. It might be because of specifics to my situation but when I first noticed problems it was in 2019 and my GP didn't seem interested in helping me much. At the end of the year a nurse said I was siuffering from PTSD and to get help with it ASPS after surgery I was having. I spoke to mp GP, who sent me to talkworks who said I was suffering from Depression and Anxiety and referred me back to my GP. That was it until I tried to ctb last year. Then that is when I started to get help but even then it was one Therpaist (suicide and self harm) who referred me back to Talkworks who I told I was still struggling and was being mistreated in my new workplace too and I was struggling to handle it, so they passed me back to my GP who then referred me to the community wellbeing team and that is where all these referrals have all stemmed from this year.

So I think I understand what you mean by your GP gatekeeping. Sometimes it seems like someone else needs to push the GP into doing something and other times it doesn't seem to matter. I think with some of the appointments I am having, I'm seeing different people for the same help. But even one person I saw a couple of weeks ago asked about when I had my memory tested (because I told her keeping notes and reminders doesn't help because I still forget the minute I've acknowledged the reminder) and I said I have nbever had one done and she said she assumed from everything I had told her over our appointments, that I was speaking of my poor memory from the perspective of it being an acknowledged health problem. I said No, I'm trying to tell everyone because I seem to be ignored each time. I'm hoping someone will one day get me help that focuses purely on diagnosing what is causing that and she said she had just thought my GP would have dealt with it back in 2020 and she thinks that is how otehr people are treating me - like I have gone through all the 'formal diagnosis'. I reiterated to her again, that I have no 'formal diagnosis' of anything, I have simply been told in conversations by professionals that I have one thing or another and they have told me to get help, I'm trying to get the 'formal diagnosis' and no one is listening to me. I'm "screaming out" and getting so angry and frustrated because I've never had any tests done but I know I should have done by now.

So she has got back to a therpaist at the self harm centre to write to my GP saying to send me for a memory test. But It's down to my GP whether he does or not. I had confirmation they'd sent that letter a few days ago from the therapist over the phone and again she said that she thought I'd had all these things done.

Obviously, I don't know of the differences in our problems but maybe with you it is that they've 'dropped' you because they cannot see you ever being in a better position from them, and maybe with me there is a belief I just need help with getting decent work and the rest could be worked with aswell. I mean they do say they know I am still capable of performing well in work despite what is going on, so do you feel that you are at an absolute 'dead end' with everything yourself, in that you don't feel you could ever work again, or you function so badly you will always need help? If so, maybe it's because they only help people, like myself if they believe it is going to be easy for them. certainly most of the people I am dealing with keep saying they are only supposed to be 'short term' help. So I wonder if you can only go through the cycle once and then they just don't bother with you and you will have to pay for further help, and this is why they have dropped you.


I had to tell my mortgage lender I couldn't pay and so had to go through my finances with them. I don't really spend on things I don't need, so for example, I don't pay for netflix or anything like that. My mobile phone has 2 SIMs that I get free data and minutes each month so I don't have a monthly bill for that. I've only driven 4000 miles in a year so fuel costs are low.

But my expenses were still £1300 before I even thought about holidays and clothing. I think national minimum wage comes out at less than that. So single people on minimum wage just cannot live, which is a far cry from when I was growing up and only one parent needed to work to afford all the outgoings for the whole family.
For me, I do work. I'm generally a fairly on the surface "high functioning" individual, despite myriad of internal daily mental / emotional torture that is mostly down to my brain wiring. Because I'm able to articulate and rationalise my struggles fairly clearly, they often seem to think there's little point in talking therapies. They don't tend to make much difference for me and never have, years ago when I did have more engagement with mental health services the staff would often tell me I had more of a handle on my own thought processes than even their understanding. I'd oddly seem to end up educating them on how it feels to actually live with complex trauma, ptsd, self harm, anxiety, major depressive disorder and the like but no amount is talking about it or exploring CBT/DBT or whatever else they like to tout as current favoured approach has ever been able to combat my default brain wiring. So they trialed lots of different drugs, and they didn't do much either. Maybe there is no "fix" for me, and I often find outside of whatever they read in a textbook, they have no idea what to do. People are individuals but instead of really listening and understanding everyone's specific nuances, they take generalised approaches. I think in part because services don't communicate well, but also because there is a massive lack of resource to devote to really dealing with each individual on a more personally tailored approach unique and needed for each case. We are just numbers with allocated minimal time slots that don't allow care providers to really get to root sources. Because waiting lists are so long they seem to be more interested in a quick assessment that categorises you in terms of immediate risk and it not at immediate risk of significant harm to self or others, you get punted because of that lack of resource. However, if there was more investment in early interventions and proper longterm support then I think it would help prevent a large number of people from actually reaching imminent crisis point. There is little forethought in U.K. healthcare anymore which I think is down to service pressures and funding. Across the board in all specialties whether mental or physical health, early interventions and treatment can help many (and from a purely financial perspective would save them a lot of money in the longer term as less people would need more critical treatments and less people would likely end up unable to work which would then save on benefits system). But they are too stretched to effectively implement measures like this. It's all reactive rather than preventative.

I hope you get somewhere and find some resolution though. Good luck. 🤞
 
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For me, I do work. I'm generally a fairly on the surface "high functioning" individual, despite myriad of internal daily mental / emotional torture that is mostly down to my brain wiring. Because I'm able to articulate and rationalise my struggles fairly clearly, they often seem to think there's little point in talking therapies. They don't tend to make much difference for me and never have, years ago when I did have more engagement with mental health services the staff would often tell me I had more of a handle on my own thought processes than even their understanding. I'd oddly seem to end up educating them on how it feels to actually live with complex trauma, ptsd, self harm, anxiety, major depressive disorder and the like but no amount is talking about it or exploring CBT/DBT or whatever else they like to tout as current favoured approach has ever been able to combat my default brain wiring. So they trialed lots of different drugs, and they didn't do much either. Maybe there is no "fix" for me, and I often find outside of whatever they read in a textbook, they have no idea what to do. People are individuals but instead of really listening and understanding everyone's specific nuances, they take generalised approaches. I think in part because services don't communicate well, but also because there is a massive lack of resource to devote to really dealing with each individual on a more personally tailored approach unique and needed for each case. We are just numbers with allocated minimal time slots that don't allow care providers to really get to root sources. Because waiting lists are so long they seem to be more interested in a quick assessment that categorises you in terms of immediate risk and it not at immediate risk of significant harm to self or others, you get punted because of that lack of resource. However, if there was more investment in early interventions and proper longterm support then I think it would help prevent a large number of people from actually reaching imminent crisis point. There is little forethought in U.K. healthcare anymore which I think is down to service pressures and funding. Across the board in all specialties whether mental or physical health, early interventions and treatment can help many (and from a purely financial perspective would save them a lot of money in the longer term as less people would need more critical treatments and less people would likely end up unable to work which would then save on benefits system). But they are too stretched to effectively implement measures like this. It's all reactive rather than preventative.

I hope you get somewhere and find some resolution though. Good luck. 🤞

You have highlighted EXACTLY what the problems are. I have similar health problems that you have mentioned and I also have more knowledge than them as I have watched thousands of videos from therapist and doctors online and studied the causes such as bullying and narcissistic abuse. I tell them directly what I'm suffered from and they still get it wrong.
One asked me last week if I've suffered from these problems all my life and I couldn't help but shout no it's been since the bullying started 7 years ago! I'd already told her and her colleague who I had appointments with last year. Practically every appointment I've had I've mentioned the bullying because I can't get it out of my head and it's like she has just been ignoring it all because she is unaware bullying can cause PTSD, depression and anxiety. I have even told them of problems with my typing and the kind of errors I make but no one has sorted out for me to actually type up something in front of a specialist so they can see what is happening. If they watched me and saw how I struggled to correct them , they would see how my mind is malfunctioning.

I even worked in the NHS and could see why they had these problems, all across the board there are people who just see the NHS as an easy life, a soft employer who as long as you don't complain about them, they will let you get away with murder, quite literally. My team caused £3000 of stock to be unaccounted for and missing. No one cared. They found a way to avoid blame and did nothing to help the ward find out what could have happened and if it could be fixed. I was trying up until the day they got rid of me, but no-one else tried at all.

Anyway, thanks for the good luck wishes, I am close to taking my SN any day now, may even do it tonight because I can't keep waiting for them to catch up so I might not even see if they do manage to figure it out. I guess there isn't much point in wishing you luck with them if they have dropped you but maybe something will happen.
 
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You have highlighted EXACTLY what the problems are. I have similar health problems that you have mentioned and I also have more knowledge than them as I have watched thousands of videos from therapist and doctors online and studied the causes such as bullying and narcissistic abuse. I tell them directly what I'm suffered from and they still get it wrong.
One asked me last week if I've suffered from these problems all my life and I couldn't help but shout no it's been since the bullying started 7 years ago! I'd already told her and her colleague who I had appointments with last year. Practically every appointment I've had I've mentioned the bullying because I can't get it out of my head and it's like she has just been ignoring it all because she is unaware bullying can cause PTSD, depression and anxiety. I have even told them of problems with my typing and the kind of errors I make but no one has sorted out for me to actually type up something in front of a specialist so they can see what is happening. If they watched me and saw how I struggled to correct them , they would see how my mind is malfunctioning.

I even worked in the NHS and could see why they had these problems, all across the board there are people who just see the NHS as an easy life, a soft employer who as long as you don't complain about them, they will let you get away with murder, quite literally. My team caused £3000 of stock to be unaccounted for and missing. No one cared. They found a way to avoid blame and did nothing to help the ward find out what could have happened and if it could be fixed. I was trying up until the day they got rid of me, but no-one else tried at all.

Anyway, thanks for the good luck wishes, I am close to taking my SN any day now, may even do it tonight because I can't keep waiting for them to catch up so I might not even see if they do manage to figure it out. I guess there isn't much point in wishing you luck with them if they have dropped you but maybe something will happen.
All public sector environments are absolutely broken. I have experience working there also and have witnessed similar many times. For all the "look good on paper" policies they have, there is little follow through. If you try to make things better and challenge status quo you're often more likely to be bullied or ostracised and treated like a troublemaker. There's a lot of inherent "shut up and get on with it and don't raise your head above the parapet" mentality. There's also a lot of people in management getting paid way too much for nothing, they have no concept of how to manage anything. And the worst offenders are never held to account, they band together and find a scapegoat. Having also worked in private sector, comparatively I was horrified when witnessing some of the toxic cultures in public sector and lack of accountability. However, to be fair, there are also a lot of people who go above and beyond to fill the gaps left by those who do the bare minimal. Unfortunately this ends up with the really dedicated people burning out, and ending up off sick or having to leave, whilst the idiots coast along ineffectually. And in healthcare environment it's very strange because if someone is suffering you would think they'd be given more empathy, understanding and support by colleagues and management because it's a healthcare environment and they should understand more! But sadly mental health can hold even more stigma working in these places. 😑

It baffles me. But I think have veered massively off topic! Wishing you peace, however things play out for you. X
 
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All public sector environments are absolutely broken. I have experience working there also and have witnessed similar many times. For all the "look good on paper" policies they have, there is little follow through. If you try to make things better and challenge status quo you're often more likely to be bullied or ostracised and treated like a troublemaker. There's a lot of inherent "shut up and get on with it and don't raise your head above the parapet" mentality. There's also a lot of people in management getting paid way too much for nothing, they have no concept of how to manage anything. And the worst offenders are never held to account, they band together and find a scapegoat. Having also worked in private sector, comparatively I was horrified when witnessing some of the toxic cultures in public sector and lack of accountability. However, to be fair, there are also a lot of people who go above and beyond to fill the gaps left by those who do the bare minimal. Unfortunately this ends up with the really dedicated people burning out, and ending up off sick or having to leave, whilst the idiots coast along ineffectually. And in healthcare environment it's very strange because if someone is suffering you would think they'd be given more empathy, understanding and support by colleagues and management because it's a healthcare environment and they should understand more! But sadly mental health can hold even more stigma working in these places. 😑

It baffles me. But I think have veered massively off topic! Wishing you peace, however things play out for you. X

Wow, yes probably a bit off topic but again you have explained my experience there exactly and better than I could explain it.
 
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I'm genuinely surprised by this. Murder would imply that he planned and carried out the killing of these individuals, which is untrue. He merely sold them the means to CTB, which is not the same thing.

To play the devil's advocate here, I don't think that this man was doing what he was doing because he's some sort of pro-choice activist. He was actively profiting by selling people SN in order to self-delete. Any normie who looks at that is not going to feel sympathetic
 
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Yes UK. It might be because of specifics to my situation but when I first noticed problems it was in 2019 and my GP didn't seem interested in helping me much. At the end of the year a nurse said I was siuffering from PTSD and to get help with it ASPS after surgery I was having. I spoke to mp GP, who sent me to talkworks who said I was suffering from Depression and Anxiety and referred me back to my GP. That was it until I tried to ctb last year. Then that is when I started to get help but even then it was one Therpaist (suicide and self harm) who referred me back to Talkworks who I told I was still struggling and was being mistreated in my new workplace too and I was struggling to handle it, so they passed me back to my GP who then referred me to the community wellbeing team and that is where all these referrals have all stemmed from this year.

So I think I understand what you mean by your GP gatekeeping. Sometimes it seems like someone else needs to push the GP into doing something and other times it doesn't seem to matter. I think with some of the appointments I am having, I'm seeing different people for the same help. But even one person I saw a couple of weeks ago asked about when I had my memory tested (because I told her keeping notes and reminders doesn't help because I still forget the minute I've acknowledged the reminder) and I said I have nbever had one done and she said she assumed from everything I had told her over our appointments, that I was speaking of my poor memory from the perspective of it being an acknowledged health problem. I said No, I'm trying to tell everyone because I seem to be ignored each time. I'm hoping someone will one day get me help that focuses purely on diagnosing what is causing that and she said she had just thought my GP would have dealt with it back in 2020 and she thinks that is how otehr people are treating me - like I have gone through all the 'formal diagnosis'. I reiterated to her again, that I have no 'formal diagnosis' of anything, I have simply been told in conversations by professionals that I have one thing or another and they have told me to get help, I'm trying to get the 'formal diagnosis' and no one is listening to me. I'm "screaming out" and getting so angry and frustrated because I've never had any tests done but I know I should have done by now.

So she has got back to a therpaist at the self harm centre to write to my GP saying to send me for a memory test. But It's down to my GP whether he does or not. I had confirmation they'd sent that letter a few days ago from the therapist over the phone and again she said that she thought I'd had all these things done.

Obviously, I don't know of the differences in our problems but maybe with you it is that they've 'dropped' you because they cannot see you ever being in a better position from them, and maybe with me there is a belief I just need help with getting decent work and the rest could be worked with aswell. I mean they do say they know I am still capable of performing well in work despite what is going on, so do you feel that you are at an absolute 'dead end' with everything yourself, in that you don't feel you could ever work again, or you function so badly you will always need help? If so, maybe it's because they only help people, like myself if they believe it is going to be easy for them. certainly most of the people I am dealing with keep saying they are only supposed to be 'short term' help. So I wonder if you can only go through the cycle once and then they just don't bother with you and you will have to pay for further help, and this is why they have dropped you.


I had to tell my mortgage lender I couldn't pay and so had to go through my finances with them. I don't really spend on things I don't need, so for example, I don't pay for netflix or anything like that. My mobile phone has 2 SIMs that I get free data and minutes each month so I don't have a monthly bill for that. I've only driven 4000 miles in a year so fuel costs are low.

But my expenses were still £1300 before I even thought about holidays and clothing. I think national minimum wage comes out at less than that. So single people on minimum wage just cannot live, which is a far cry from when I was growing up and only one parent needed to work to afford all the outgoings for the whole family.
Thank you for sharing this. My own experiences also tell me that you better fucking stay healthy and happy, because you can't trust anyone to help you. As a teenager I naively expected that if there was something that could be done to help, you could usually find a doctor who would do it—at least the legal stuff. It's so scary now, knowing how much we're all on our own.
 
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This is SO unfair. My friend and I both got ours from a guy in the UK, so what now is that guy a murderer or something????? Both of us aren't even mental health patients, we just both had/have terminal cancer and wanted to CTB on our own terms with full family support. Sickening!!!!!
 
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This is SO unfair. My friend and I both got ours from a guy in the UK, so what now is that guy a murderer or something????? Both of us aren't even mental health patients, we just both had/have terminal cancer and wanted to CTB on our own terms with full family support. Sickening!!!!!
I guess it's because K-Law knowingly sold suicide kits to where people see him as a murderer, he profited off of the desperation of the people he sold his sn to.
 
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I'm genuinely surprised by this. Murder would imply that he planned and carried out the killing of these individuals, which is untrue. He merely sold them the means to CTB, which is not the same thing.

To play the devil's advocate here, I don't think that this man was doing what he was doing because he's some sort of pro-choice activist. He was actively profiting by selling people SN in order to self-delete. Any normie who looks at that is not going to feel sympathetic

I wonder how the authorities would say what he has done is different to what Veritas or other places do for people. I think they also supply the drug and leave it for the person to do.
 
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I wonder how the authorities would say what he has done is different to what Veritas or other places do for people. I think they also supply the drug and leave it for the person to do.
Maybe because they operate within certain protocols they have to follow whereas Lawb just acted out of his own volition
 
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Maybe because they operate within certain protocols they have to follow whereas Lawb just acted out of his own volition

Yes true, I suppose they have demonstrated in their own country they are following their accepted rules.

I just wish everything could be seen as right, or wrong, not right or wrong depending on who you are, where you are, or what day it is. Not that I am advocating for a single world government.
 
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Yes true, I suppose they have demonstrated in their own country they are following their accepted rules.

I just wish everything could be seen as right, or wrong, not right or wrong depending on who you are, where you are, or what day it is. Not that I am advocating for a single world government.
I used to teach military ethics at a Royal Military Academy here in the UK to prospective officers. Oh the debates we had about this stuff. I set an essay question each year: The right to life includes, by implication, a right to death. Discuss.
 
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I don't profess to be any type of legal expert but I don't understand this unless it's being done to instill fear in any and all potential suppliers so that supply becomes globally restricted.

Unless they have documented evidence of him actively coercing or encouraging purchasers to ingest the product with intention to kill themselves I'm not sure how he can be charged this way?

How is it different from a gun shop selling a firearm to someone who then uses it to ctb? The seller didn't force the purchaser to do so in either scenario, and if purchasers do not disclose intent for use then how would a supplier be culpable?

I know law is more complex and I knew they'd pin something on him but I don't understand how they're managing to bring murder charges against him. 😞
I saw that it says he sent out at least 1200 packages. Probably from each package sold, it also had some email or message exchange with customers. If out of over a thousand message history, even just a small few percent of those customers accidentally mentioning they were depressed or along the lines of self-harm, would already be dozens, which helps indicate he was aware of their intentions, but yet still supplied the SN

It also says some customers were as young as 16. Some could be immature and still in the mentality of a 12 or 13 year old. While they were also emotionally unstable going through difficult times, could of accidentally leaked their intentions in the email exchange

Another possibility is they had a sting operation, and the police posed themselves as potential customer and contacted Kenneth, and caught him red handed

Probably Kenneth's computers, online accounts, phone, etc. were also seized and reasonable evidence was found
 
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If out of over a thousand message history, even just a small few percent of those customers accidentally mentioning they were depressed or along the lines of self-harm, would already be dozens, which helps indicate he was aware of their intentions, but yet still supplied the SN
This is true, he even bragged about how a lot of people died as a result from his sn which i don't know how he knew that when I'm sure it's not likely that he followed up on what happened to some of the people he sold the sn to.

It also says some customers were as young as 16. Some could be immature and still in the mentality of a 12 or 13 year old. While they were also emotionally unstable going through difficult times, could of accidentally leaked their intentions in the email exchange
Agreed, there could've possibly been a few exchanges of email where Law was aware what the end result would potentially be when he sold the sn.

Another possibility is they had a sting operation, and the police posed themselves as potential customer and contacted Kenneth, and caught him red handed
Was it not that a few families found the ic packaging and notified police about it?
 
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This is true, he even bragged about how a lot of people died as a result from his sn which i don't know how he knew that when I'm sure it's not likely that he followed up on what happened to some of the people he sold the sn to.


Agreed, there could've possibly been a few exchanges of email where Law was aware what the end result would potentially be when he sold the sn.


Was it not that a few families found the ic packaging and notified police about it?
Yeah. I wouldn't be surprised if out of over 1000 people, there were a small percentage of customers that also asked things like if he also supplied meto / benzos / antacid, or asked if he knew anyone that did or know where to get it.... and things like that

And I'm not sure. I actually never followed this case much. I just read it in more detail for the first time, from the link the OP shared