Keep fantasizing about going out and ctb by train

[fluorescentpearl]

I know it's not a good method, has so many issues, but I'm so empty that I'm considering it, I just feel like my SI would stop me before doing the jump

I know it's not a good method, has so many issues, but I'm so empty that I'm considering it, I just feel like my SI would stop me before doing the jump

I'm wondering, if I wore ear plugs would I be less likely to get scared of the sound?

 

[LastNite]

If you know it's not a good method, and believe that your SI would stop you if it came to it, then it's best to scrap that entire idea from your mind.
The outcome will likely be terrible.

I am speaking from my own experience. I had a method in mind, I knew it was terrible, and I knew that my SI would probably stop me from going through it all. I was feeling empty too. You can almost say I was a zombie. I went to the spot where I was going to do it, managed to only complete half of the steps that I had planned before my SI kicked in and I panicked. It ruined my life so yeh, it wasnt worth it. Take care <3.

 

[fluorescentpearl]

If you know it's not a good method, and believe that your SI would stop you if it came to it, then it's best to scrap that entire idea from your mind.
The outcome will likely be terrible.

I am speaking from my own experience. I had a method in mind, I knew it was terrible, and I knew that my SI would probably stop me from going through it all. I was feeling empty too. You can almost say I was a zombie. I went to the spot where I was going to do it, managed to only complete half of the steps that I had planned before my SI kicked in and I panicked. It ruined my life so yeh, it wasnt worth it. Take care <3.

I'm hoping I'll be able to be patient and wait for it all but I'm losing hope in being strong enough
I have sedatives and ear plugs so I'm just considering trying it at this point

 

[nayomi]

why not? pretty fast death

the sounds will be already too much anyway

 

[fluorescentpearl]

why not? pretty fast death

the sounds will be already too much anyway

What do you mean?

 

[nayomi]

What do you mean?

which part

 

[fluorescentpearl]

which part

The whole message haha, I'm not fully understanding if you mean that I could do it or?

 

[nayomi]

The whole message haha, I'm not fully understanding if you mean that I could do it or?

death by train have high chance of mortality (80-90 precent), if you are not dead tho you are fucked

train is pretty loud so idk if ear plugs would help as much. try to make sure that your head will take the hit first

 

[fluorescentpearl]

death by train have high chance of mortality (80-90 precent), if you are not dead tho you are fucked

train is pretty loud so idk if ear plugs would help as much. try to make sure that your head will take the hit first

It's weirdly calming to have someone reassure me on it

 

[hughmun9]

Train suicide is not a guarantee. I've seen some studies claim 20% survive, some claim 10%. I survived. I'm lucky I'm not signficantly disabled in any way, but most survivors are.

10% are very bad odds if those odds also come with permanent lifelong disability. Definitely not recommended, too large a chance to survive, and if you do, too large a chance to be significantly maimed.

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

Train,gun,jumping to hard surface. For some reason my brain refuse to ever attempt these no matter how bad my life gets.

 

[LastNite]

The whole message haha, I'm not fully understanding if you mean that I could do it or?

Me neither, I would advise against doing it. You should think it through more. You sound compulsive, that's not a good thing to act on when it comes to life changing decisions.

Do you know which train and which point you'll be at? how fast it's usually going? where you'll stand/lay/jump? how you'll ensure that you won't panic? How to avoid being spotted/stopped?
There have been cases where people have lost limbs attempting suicide by train and ended up surviving because the train missed their vital organs.
I'm not exactly sure how they did it, but it does sound like it was done out of compulse with no planning whatsoever. Please take a break and think everything through. Dont do anything that you might regret later on.

 

[fluorescentpearl]

Me neither, I would advise against doing it. You should think it through more. You sound compulsive, that's not a good thing to act on when it comes to life changing decisions.

Do you know which train and which point you'll be at? how fast it's usually going? where you'll stand/lay/jump? how you'll ensure that you won't panic? How to avoid being spotted/stopped?
There have been cases where people have lost limbs attempting suicide by train and ended up surviving because the train missed their vital organs.
I'm not exactly sure how they did it, but it does sound like it was done out of compulse with no planning whatsoever. Please take a break and think everything through. Dont do anything that you might regret later on.

Ive done a lot of research on trains that transit nonstopping at my nearby station, the lucky thing is my nearby station is on a fully straight piece of rail, which means trains go at their full speed of 120 km p h and have a hard time stopping
I live in the countryside so access to rails is easy and there isn't cameras on the rails, there's also trees close to rails so I could hide there, generally it's a solid way to go, I just feel guilty that I bought SN for nothing haha
I only don't know if I'd have to do it by decapitation or by going in front of the train right as it's about to pass

 

[LastNite]

Ive done a lot of research on trains that transit nonstopping at my nearby station, the lucky thing is my nearby station is on a fully straight piece of rail, which means trains go at their full speed of 120 km p h and have a hard time stopping
I live in the countryside so access to rails is easy and there isn't cameras on the rails, there's also trees close to rails so I could hide there, generally it's a solid way to go, I just feel guilty that I bought SN for nothing haha

Why a train over SN? Sorry, u dont have to answer, Im just curious because a train is violent compared to SN. I just assume that people go with the least violent way out.

 

[fluorescentpearl]

Why a train over SN? Sorry, u dont have to answer, Im just curious because a train is violent compared to SN. I just assume that people go with the least violent way out.

I guess I'm just tired, I have to wait more than a month for SN to arrive, I'd have to celebrate birthdays and face family and pretend to get better, and I can't handle it weirdly enough, it's already a lot that I've survived a week in this state, never eating and only laying in bed without energy, I keep hoping I could fall asleep and not wake up, every morning when I open my eyes I have breakdowns and meltdowns,

I believe in an afterlife, so dying wouldn't end my life in any way, just take me somewhere better.. Which I hope for

 

[nayomi]

Ive done a lot of research on trains that transit nonstopping at my nearby station, the lucky thing is my nearby station is on a fully straight piece of rail, which means trains go at their full speed of 120 km p h and have a hard time stopping
I live in the countryside so access to rails is easy and there isn't cameras on the rails, there's also trees close to rails so I could hide there, generally it's a solid way to go, I just feel guilty that I bought SN for nothing haha
I only don't know if I'd have to do it by decapitation or by going in front of the train right as it's about to pass

take the sn before the train arrive to have higher chance of death

 

[fluorescentpearl]

take the sn before the train arrive to have higher chance of death

My SN will arrive in over a month, which I'm unsure if I can wait that long, that's why I'm considering the train

 

[hughmun9]

My SN will arrive in over a month, which I'm unsure if I can wait that long, that's why I'm considering the train

Is waiting one month worth throwing the dice for a 10% chance of survival with lifelong disability and pain. With the possibility that you'll be too disabled to even try again?

 

[fluorescentpearl]

Is waiting one month worth throwing the dice for a 10% chance of survival with lifelong disability and pain. With the possibility that you'll be too disabled to even try again?

Honestly? Yes, I'm desperate enough to die, but I am hoping I'll find a way to just get a hotel room and hang myself