just woke up on the floor and I'm now throwing away my razors :D

[getoutgirl]

The title
Basically yas I decided to cut this mornin in the shower and I was maybe having waaay too much fun and then my vision went funky and i went uh oh here we go and then i woke up naked in my hallway :D
and now my head hurts!
thankfully no one was home that hour for me to give a heart attack to.
also the one thing i remember while getting out of the shower and dozing off was thinking "oh wait i should really turn off the shower water cos i'ts important to save water and-" and then lights out
I did wake up in a whole mess...
BUT
the water was NOT running ! ! !
So did I walk back just to turn it off and then fainted? or maybe i did the second after i had that thought? hell if i know, i'm just glad I still have environmental consciousness while losing my own consciousness ^^

this is a good recovery™ post btw, I'm throwing away these razors right away. Fuck this. It's no good, I don't like this for myself, i don't want to keep doing this, this to happen again again. b-bye buddies, fuck u.

hugs to whoever reads this i just wanted to share <3

 

[Dot]

Fck thse razrs

 

[GhostInTheMachine]

You might have turned the water off while blacked out. It sounds crazy, but you might've been "awake" but had no capacity to recall anything.

 

[Higurashi415]

Proud of you. SH is a bitch but I believe you can make it through :)

 

[whybother2002]

I'm so happy for you <3 everything will only get better and better now

 

[mickeyboy]

I did that in a school bathroom once (not naked, just unconscious) very long time ago. I kept my blades for years after that, though, kept using 'em because I never listen when the universe screams at me to stop doing something. I only recently stopped, but I should've stopped then so I wouldn't have mobility and strength issues in my wrists because of tendon damage.

Mine was more like I collapsed first, then lost consciousness. I was inside a stall, but when I passed out, I landed in a very visible spot. My body landed half outside the stall since gaps under the stalls are crazy high. When I woke up, I saw someone leaving the bathroom. Walked right past me, couldn't have missed me. She was wearing a backpack, so obvi a student. I was certain she'd go get a school administrator, so I tried to clean up the fastest I could (it took me nearly half an hour to clean myself and the floor), but she didn't rat me out! Luckily I get nosebleeds often enough that once my arm was cleaned and covered, I could blame the mess on the floor on a nosebleed as I cleaned it (it wasn't believable, but no one who walked in questioned it).

But yeah, I really hope I didn't traumatize that girl who walked in on me. I think about that sometimes, like, she's my angel. I rarely got caught when I would do it at school, but I did get caught just enough to get suspended more than once. I always make the joke of "most kids get suspended for cutting class, I got suspended for cutting IN class!" because I'm incredibly unfunny.

ANYWAYS hope you are successful in your recovery! One day at a time or whatever those other stupid phrases are.

 

[girl from mars]

I know I'm so late to this post but I just wanted to say I'm proud of you for quitting! you're quite strong for sharing this story

 

[getoutgirl]

I know I'm so late to this post but I just wanted to say I'm proud of you for quitting! you're quite strong for sharing this story

awww that's sweet thank uuuu
yeah a lil over 2 weeks now. No razors. All good there, keeping sh at check, so yay.
thx for leaving a kind comment <3

 

[orpheus_]

Damn, that really sounds scary. But I'm glad you are quitting! Wishing all the best to you <3