Just took 10 pills of xanax. Can’t live.

[xBrialesana]

I know abusing these meds isn't "okay" and makes it harder for those of us that need them, but god damn the days that I would store up my scripts for those benzo naps literally saved my life.

 

[020x]

Damn.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

I wish we could go into mini comas at will. I'd like a 3 day break

THISSSSS.. this is why i want benzos or other meds that can just knock me out or make me completely numb for a while.

 

[secretsfromthecity]

I can't do this. Every fucking day is hard. Today I had to take a vacation from the world. I know these are addictive and I have a limited supply, so I can only do this once every two months.

I am just in so much pain. And from what a bullshit. I saw two people holding hands in a park today. They looked so happy.

I shouldn't probably go out of my house for the rest of my life. Because when I see these people and their happiness, it just crushes me. It is a constant reminder of how fucking alone I am and how there is noone I love and noone that loves me.

I wonder how it feels? Love? Waking up next to someone in the morning?

I am crying my eyes out. Waiting for pills to take effect. Thanks for listening to my self-pity.

i felt this every word..it's too hard. picked up smoking to try to distract myself