Venting Just let me fall asleep

[FuneralCry]

Really hope I fall asleep soon, it's too late for this. Hopefully writing this will make me fall asleep. Honestly this is all this site is useful for these days, just a place to write down my feelings towards existence. I cannot stand the social media esque aspect of it which is increasingly becoming prevelant, so many humans just want to feel important and like their existence matters when really they don't and could never be, honestly this place feels like it's becoming shallower and less a serious forum about suicide by the day honestly, makes me feel alone, this human species really is such an abomination. I don't belong here or anywhere, I'm only meant to not exist.

Humans are such a toxic species, their toxicity makes me wish for the peace of death even more, so much insufferable content on this site now but anyway why am I surprised, humans like to poison everything. I so envy those who die, how beautiful must it be to never be able to think or feel ever again, consciousness truly is a curse. I'm so tired now, I just wish for the peace of an eternal and dreamless sleep, really hope I fall asleep, only non-existence can take away the pain of existing.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I'm sorry for your suffering.

 

[karmaisabitch]

Really hope I fall asleep soon, it's too late for this. Hopefully writing this will make me fall asleep. Honestly this is all this site is useful for these days, just a place to write down my feelings towards existence. I cannot stand the social media esque aspect of it which is increasingly becoming prevelant, so many humans just want to feel important and like their existence matters when really they don't and could never be, honestly this place feels like it's becoming shallower and less a serious forum about suicide by the day honestly, makes me feel alone, this human species really is such an abomination. I don't belong here or anywhere, I'm only meant to not exist.

Humans are such a toxic species, their toxicity makes me wish for the peace of death even more, so much insufferable content on this site now but anyway why am I surprised, humans like to poison everything. I so envy those who die, how beautiful must it be to never be able to think or feel ever again, consciousness truly is a curse. I'm so tired now, I just wish for the peace of an eternal and dreamless sleep, really hope I fall asleep, only non-existence can take away the pain of existing.

I wish I can go to sleep too and never wake up! I agree people are toxic that's why I don't really communicate with anyone. Since my son passed away I have no life so hopefully I can rest soon.

 

[Guy_Smiley]

Honestly this is all this site is useful for these days, just a place to write down my feelings towards existence. I cannot stand the social media esque aspect of it which is increasingly becoming prevelant...

Just a thought, but maybe you could write in a private journal instead? That way you could still write down your feelings but wouldn't have to put up with all the things you cannot stand about this site.

 

[Immensevoid]

I personally think she's a real suffering soul and complaining about some things is part of the problem of this suffering that she carries inside and her every day state of mind, sharing it with others even if they don't agree is the only way that she has in this world to give vent to a suffering which unfortunately never ends existing in a world that gives you no choice, that make you feel trapped and hopeless without means to die peacefully and I think it's her only coping mechanism. This is only my opinion. I prefer to look in depth rather than stop at the surface of things, if what she writes bothers you why don't you click the "ignore" button? I don't understand this thing.

 

[karmaisabitch]

I personally think she's a real suffering soul and complaining about some things is part of the problem of this suffering that she carries inside and her every day state of mind, sharing it with others even if they don't agree is the only way that she has in this world to give vent to a suffering which unfortunately never ends existing in a world that gives you no choice, that make you feel trapped and hopeless without means to die peacefully and I think it's her only coping mechanism. This is only my opinion. I prefer to look in depth rather than stop at the surface of things, if what she writes bothers you why don't you click the "ignore" button? I don't understand this thing.

I agree with you, well said!

 

[anxiousmess0471]

I'm so sorry you feel this way. I've been seeing a lot of your posts and comments and I hate that you're suffering so much. You seem like a nice person and all I want to say is I hope you get the peace that you want/need.

 

[iloverachel]

I understand. Sleeps seems to be the only temporary escape from this hellish world

 

[watchdog]

I know right, it kills me to be awake and alive. I want nothing more than to fall asleep and get away.

 

[iloverachel]

Congratulations on 34,000 posts! Love reading them

 

[DefinitelyReady]

I personally think she's a real suffering soul and complaining about some things is part of the problem of this suffering that she carries inside and her every day state of mind, sharing it with others even if they don't agree is the only way that she has in this world to give vent to a suffering which unfortunately never ends existing in a world that gives you no choice, that make you feel trapped and hopeless without means to die peacefully and I think it's her only coping mechanism. This is only my opinion. I prefer to look in depth rather than stop at the surface of things, if what she writes bothers you why don't you click the "ignore" button? I don't understand this thing.

Ah good idea! I would not have thought of ignore unless she mssged me. I feel horrible at night too, but don't want to post a different version about it to clog up the forum and waste what energy I have trying to duck and dive her posts. Thanks!

 

[Praestat_Mori]

This would be my most preferred method. Just falling asleep and never waking up again (painless natural death while sleeping). Preferable in any case! It'd be also the best way for friends, relatives and loved ones to cope with the facts.

 

[yeh it's all gucci]

I cannot stand the social media esque aspect of it which is increasingly becoming prevelant, so many humans just want to feel important and like their existence matters when really they don't and could never be, honestly this place feels like it's becoming shallower and less a serious forum about suicide by the day honestly

Humans are such a toxic species, their toxicity makes me wish for the peace of death even more, so much insufferable content on this site now but anyway why am I surprised, humans like to poison everything.

I do somewhat agree with these statements. A lot of the threads made now are just for attention grabbing, half of it is untrue and seems like people are only posting for shock value and to get likes and alerts to make them feel good.

Like everything suicide related already has a thread and they want to seem edgy and new so they make up some BS to post a new thread about, knowing full well that it's some ridiculous method idea no one will ever use like 'just hear me out... I'm going to cover myself in oil and set myself on fire, it won't hurt' or 'which chainsaw is best for decapitating myself with.'
Like please, you're just fishing for comments and reactions so you feel important. I honestly wish people would just not interact with these posts so they stop.

Edit: also this:

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I understand. Humans beings are truly awful. You're better off not relating to anybody honestly.

if what she writes bothers you why don't you click the "ignore" button? I don't understand this thing.

The ignore button doesn't ignore threads of the user that you ignored... it merely ignores their posts instead. And it's FC's threads that piss people off. Just to clarify, I never ignored her and I never will because her posts comfort me for a short while. I'm just stating that the ignore button doesn't work in this situation. However, I still do think that people should manually ignore her (i.e. not click on her threads) but it sadly seems like the human psyche is incapable of this. Ironically, the person here who is best at ignoring content they don't like is... FC

 

[Immensevoid]

I understand. Humans beings are truly awful. You're better off not relating to anybody honestly.

The ignore button doesn't ignore threads of the user that you ignored... it merely ignores their posts instead. And it's FC's threads that piss people off. Just to clarify, I never ignored her and I never will because her posts comfort me for a short while. I'm just stating that the ignore button doesn't work in this situation. However, I still do think that people should manually ignore her (i.e. not click on her threads) but it sadly seems like the human psyche is incapable of this. Ironically, the person here who is best at ignoring content they don't like is... FC