Venting Just getting really frustrated, think I might just man up and take a risk soon

[Neogoloid]

I'm done sitting around and worrying about pain or the chance of survival, I just want out of this so badly. I'm sick of thinking about if things were better, and I'm tired of wishing, I'm ready for action.

I'm sick of waiting for the bus, it's time to catch it. Fuck a job, and fuck life, I don't want to be here anymore. I wasn't meant for this world as a genetically flawed male. Humans are naturally shallow and we are just animals and this is an urban jungle.

Anyways I'm just gonna keep practicing like I've been doing, practicing partial hanging until I can compress the cartoid artery every time I practice, getting the posture right and the location of the artery.

Once I fully have it down pact I'm gonna kneel down, but I'll also bar my legs so I can't stand, and Then I'll go unconscious and die hopefully.

And I'm gonna lock my door to my room and barricade it as well. If all else fails then I'm just gonna jump. I can't keep worrying about the pain I'd feel if I survived. Because then I'd never do it.

Suicide obviously comes with risks no matter what you do. Aside from the few methods that 100% guarantee death. I hate how durable the human body is, seriously.

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

I'm going with hanging too, but full. Hope it works out for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's horrible how it's so difficult to die but anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you are searching for, best wishes.

 

[Weltall]

I'm done sitting around and worrying about pain or the chance of survival, I just want out of this so badly. I'm sick of thinking about if things were better, and I'm tired of wishing, I'm ready for action.

I'm sick of waiting for the bus, it's time to catch it. Fuck a job, and fuck life, I don't want to be here anymore. I wasn't meant for this world as a genetically flawed male. Humans are naturally shallow and we are just animals and this is an urban jungle.

Anyways I'm just gonna keep practicing like I've been doing, practicing partial hanging until I can compress the cartoid artery every time I practice, getting the posture right and the location of the artery.

Once I fully have it down pact I'm gonna kneel down, but I'll also bar my legs so I can't stand, and Then I'll go unconscious and die hopefully.

And I'm gonna lock my door to my room and barricade it as well. If all else fails then I'm just gonna jump. I can't keep worrying about the pain I'd feel if I survived. Because then I'd never do it.

Suicide obviously comes with risks no matter what you do. Aside from the few methods that 100% guarantee death. I hate how durable the human body is, seriously.

I won't coerce you or change your mind.
You're in pain, and heading in a direction that you feel is best for you.

Just remember that you have a choice, and we want you to be happy with the decision you make.
I'll support you in whatever you choose.