Venting just fucking tired.

[synthcadia]

so i'm just feeling tired.

i haven't been able to get therapy set up. it's so fucking confusing and i am afraid to get hit with a huge copay again.

i feel like my friends will forget about me. like, when it's convenient they'll talk. but, they probs won't ask me on shit. it'd still be nice to be invited.

i'm lonely. my partner is across the sea. my bff lives in another state. i just want a friend who isn't going to leave again.

i've been contemplating ctb bc it's all too much… i'm tired. and i miss my european friends. and i miss my partner. and i am not looking forward to meeting new people. it's hard for me to click with people.

i'm just so fucking tired. i'll work on the therapy thing but. i'm indulging in self-destructive behavior. the only thing to remain will be basic functions and school. and i don't want to be like that.

i hate this. i hate feeling empty. i hate wanting so much attention. i hate being so fucked up.

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

Me too. I lost my last psychology appointment and my psychiatrist appointment is on 12 days yet. Things are getting harder and harder and I'm under death threats but I don't wanna die that way. They wanna torture me and exfoliate me alive, I'm definitely not down for this shit. I didn't do nothing to deserve it. Neither did my mom. Even my poor cat is being threatened. I almost jumped out of the window but is not tall enough. My mom threw my sn on the sink. She took all the ropes inside the house. She locked my meds. That bitch doesn't understand that I need to escape before it's too late.

 

[synthcadia]

Me too. I lost my last psychology appointment and my psychiatrist appointment is on 12 days yet. Things are getting harder and harder and I'm under death threats but I don't wanna die that way. They wanna torture me and exfoliate me alive, I'm definitely not down for this shit. I didn't do nothing to deserve it. Neither did my mom. Even my poor cat is being threatened. I almost jumped out of the window but is not tall enough. My mom threw my sn on the sink. She took all the ropes inside the house. She locked my meds. That bitch doesn't understand that I need to escape before it's too late.

jesus christ i'm so sorry. you do need to escape asap.