madscotsman
Member
- Nov 11, 2024
- 52
A classic vent, where I tell It all about how bad I've got it and woe is me, tonight I was buzzing lighter Gas for ages, then taking the biggest cig tobacco bongs I could possibly take, its self harm, I don't get anything from nicotine anymore at this point im doing it to be out of breath and at the best, puke, the sensations of slop pouring out my mouth or just gasping for air is better than this shit, the monotony and repetitiveness is just so maddening of the same shit feelings and same behaviours over and over that killing myself with tobacco bongs seems reasonable, nothing makes it better tho, the gas makes my already speedy thoughts that terrorise me even faster, least the odd smirk or giggle from the oxygen deprivation induced delirium feel less few and far in between
