Story June 13

[Joey]

He'll probably give it to me immediately and it could determine whether I really start considering ctb or not

Damn..

I remember you telling me if shit hits the fan, you'd be doing it

 

[Squiddy]

Damn..

I remember you telling me if shit hits the fan, you'd be doing it

If it causes homelessness, most likely yes as homelessness scares me

 

[Joey]

If it causes homelessness, most likely yes as homelessness scares me

Homelessness scares the fuck out of me too. I've experienced it for a couple of days when I ran away and it was terrible.

 

[Squiddy]

Homelessness scares the fuck out of me too. I've experienced it for a couple of days when I ran away and it was terrible.

I wouldn't be able to survive if I went homeless

 

[Birthinjune]

He'll probably give it to me immediately and it could determine whether I really start considering ctb or not

Your early 20s are a really rough spot. I was in a similar situation, having to go to school and work as well. Living at home wasn't a good situation, I had to live at college which was really expensive. I found financial freedom by taking out a lot of student loans and working part time. A really hard period of my life was getting kicked out of college for failing too many classes, but I eventually reapplied and finished. But in that period I was homeless and had to crash on couches until I was accepted back into school. Although it feels like you'll be slaving away at a job you hate I'm confident you can find something you enjoy to do. I know this period in life can feel impossible and aimless, but it won't feel like this forever. I hope you can find more support with your parents, and are eventually able to be vulrenable with how you are struggling, and have them be supportive. I'm sure if they knew how much pain you are in they would be

 

[Joey]

I wouldn't be able to survive if I went homeless

I wouldn't be able either. I don't have the mentality.

Your early 20s are a really rough spot. I was in a similar situation, having to go to school and work as well. Living at home wasn't a good situation, I had to live at college which was really expensive. I found financial freedom by taking out a lot of student loans and working part time. A really hard period of my life was getting kicked out of college for failing too many classes, but I eventually reapplied and finished. But in that period I was homeless and had to crash on couches until I was accepted back into school. Although it feels like you'll be slaving away at a job you hate I'm confident you can find something you enjoy to do. I know this period in life can feel impossible and aimless, but it won't feel like this forever. I hope you can find more support with your parents, and are eventually able to be vulrenable with how you are struggling, and have them be supportive. I'm sure if they knew how much pain you are in they would be

This

 

[Squiddy]

Your early 20s are a really rough spot. I was in a similar situation, having to go to school and work as well. Living at home wasn't a good situation, I had to live at college which was really expensive. I found financial freedom by taking out a lot of student loans and working part time. A really hard period of my life was getting kicked out of college for failing too many classes, but I eventually reapplied and finished. But in that period I was homeless and had to crash on couches until I was accepted back into school. Although it feels like you'll be slaving away at a job you hate I'm confident you can find something you enjoy to do. I know this period in life can feel impossible and aimless, but it won't feel like this forever. I hope you can find more support with your parents, and are eventually able to be vulrenable with how you are struggling, and have them be supportive. I'm sure if they knew how much pain you are in they would be

Thanks. I'm just hoping my parents will let me do part time instead of full

I wouldn't be able either. I don't have the mentality.

This

Knowing my luck, I'd probably be robbed or something if I went homeless which would make me want to ctb even more

 

[Joey]

Thanks. I'm just hoping my parents will let me do part time instead of full


Knowing my luck, I'd probably be robbed or something if I went homeless which would make me want to ctb even more

I'd do all right in a shelter but no way in the long term

 

[Squiddy]

I'd do all right in a shelter but no way in the long term

I'm not sure I'd even do okay in a shelter. I'd probably still want to ctb

 

[Birthinjune]

Thanks. I'm just hoping my parents will let me do part time instead of full


Knowing my luck, I'd probably be robbed or something if I went homeless which would make me want to ctb even more

I hope so too, college should be a time for growth and reflection and honing your interests, not some immense pressure to finish as fast as possible. I hope you find a balance and your parents support you!

 

[Joey]

I hope so too, college should be a time for growth and reflection and honing your interests, not some immense pressure to finish as fast as possible. I hope you find a balance and your parents support you!

Wish me peace? :)

 

[Squiddy]

I hope so too, college should be a time for growth and reflection and honing your interests, not some immense pressure to finish as fast as possible. I hope you find a balance and your parents support you!

True and thanks :) I hope to go back for computer science

 

[Joey]

I'm not sure I'd even do okay in a shelter. I'd probably still want to ctb

But as of here and now, you are where you are currently. Just know you won't go homeless.

 

[Birthinjune]

True and thanks :) I hope to go back for computer science

Awesome, you already figured out what you'd like to do which is a lot more than a lot of people, and you're halfway done! With time will come independence and less stress :)

Wish me peace? :)

I wish you peace whatever that means for you :)

 

[Squiddy]

But as of here and now, you are where you are currently. Just know you won't go homeless.

True. If I do ctb, it'll be for other reasons besides homelessness

Awesome, you already figured out what you'd like to do which is a lot more than a lot of people, and you're halfway done! With time will come independence and less stress :)


I wish you peace whatever that means for you :)

Hopefully I'll have less stress :)

 

[Joey]

True. If I do ctb, it'll be for other reasons besides homelessness


Hopefully I'll have less stress :)

I wish you peace on whatever you decide to do :)

 

[Squiddy]

I wish you peace on whatever you decide to do :)

Thanks :) ...I just have to get past the things preventing me from ctb

 

[Pen>Sword]

I'm surprised that I'm reading this right now. You are one of the most active and recognizable users here. To me, you are one of the fossils of this forum, even though your account was just made on Jun 14, 2020.

It's sad to see you go, but looking back at it, this is probably one way to find peace. We, as a community, feel sad about a member's departure, but remind ourselves that they have achieved eternal peace.

You still have about more than a month left. Enjoy the remaining days. Make it count! Carpe diem.

 

[Joey]

I'm surprised that I'm reading this right now. You are one of the most active and recognizable users here. To me, you are one of the fossils of this forum, even though your account was just made on Jun 14, 2020.

It's sad to see you go, but looking back at it, this is probably one way to find peace. We, as a community, feel sad about a member's departure, but remind ourselves that they have achieved eternal peace.

You still have about more than a month left. Enjoy the remaining days. Make it count! Carpe diem.

This site can get pretty addicting with me being active a whole bunch and stuff. I do appreciate it on finding me a fossil of this forum. I'm glad I've found this place by the time I am currently alive.

I'm scared of death and excited at the same time because I don't know what happens after and I don't know how the dying process feels.

We all gotta go sometime and it looks like my time is almost up.

 

[Squiddy]

This site can get pretty addicting with me being active a whole bunch and stuff. I do appreciate it on finding me a fossil of this forum. I'm glad I've found this place by the time I am currently alive.

I'm scared of death and excited at the same time because I don't know what happens after and I don't know how the dying process feels.

We all gotta go sometime and it looks like my time is almost up.

I wish I wasn't scared of death and could just go :(

 

[Joey]

I wish I wasn't scared of death and could just go :(

Yeah it's pretty fricking terrifying. Damn screw the survival instinct.

 

[Squiddy]

Yeah it's pretty fricking terrifying. Damn screw the survival instinct.

True. Also, if only I knew what's on the other side :(

 

[Joey]

True. Also, if only I knew what's on the other side :(

It has to do of the fear of the unknown

 

[Squiddy]

It has to do of the fear of the unknown

Yup. That's the biggest reason I'm still here

 

[Sensei]

I hear you and I feel you. I get the impression that you don't really want to die, though. Loneliness can be hell, I give you that, but you're still young and there's still a chance that you'll meet new people and perhaps also find love. Things can change quickly when you're in your 20s and even your 30s. I'm not saying that it will be easy, but I'm saying that it's not impossible. I've wasted many opportunities too and basically thrown my life away. However, I'm 20 years older than you. If you feel that you're behind there's still plenty of time to catch up. Try to live here and now. If you haven't caught up when you turn 40 it might be high time to commit suicide, though. All in all, I think you should give life one more shot. Just my two cents.