Help JUMPING ?

[illAF]

Hi everyone.

I am very low with my energy so my first post will be quite short I think. Also sorry for my poor English...

I am currently in a mental hospital. I tried several times to hang but I just can't. My only option left is to jump. I could grab a cab, go to this bridge I know which is more than 100 meters high.

BUT I'm not confident about me being able to jump.. Fucking SI...

If I can't jump then the police will eventually find me and the situation in the mental hospital will be just worst...

Here is my question : did anyone ever try to jump, really wanted to, but just couldn't do it, even with a huge desire to die ?

Thanks in advance for your answers.

 

[MrDarkness]

SI is a sign for you to live, the power of wanting to live is surprising, I personally think of every attempt is another rebirth at life to keep viewing it, but I can understand if you want to ctb good luck my friend, I hope life turns around

 

[illAF]

I used to think SI meant I didn't really want to die but I'm pretty sure now that it's not the case... For others attempts, sometimes I told myself "If I fail this one, then I keep fighting for life". But this time has gone.
Now, I KNOW I want to leave this world, I can't bear it anymore.
Thank you for your reply

 

[MrDarkness]

I used to think SI meant I didn't really want to die but I'm pretty sure now that it's not the case... For others attempts, sometimes I told myself "If I fail this one, then I keep fighting for life". But this time has gone.
Now, I KNOW I want to leave this world, I can't bear it anymore.
Thank you for your reply

I'm sorry to hear about your looks, but if you truly wish to die gl, just remember of the smiles for others and some of the little joy this cruel world, hope you find peace in death or life