The bridge is 40 metres tall, which I believe is high enough. It has barriers, but I think I could climb them. I've recently realized that part of why I want to CTB is because I long to be free from myself. Why not free fall to my death?
BridgeJumper
The Arsonist
- Apr 7, 2019
- 1,193
That's pretty hardcore. Do you think you'll take any drugs or drink to calm your nerves?
BridgeJumper
The Arsonist
- Apr 7, 2019
- 1,193
Yeah Ill get loaded off my ass. I tried to do this once but I lacked the balls. I swung my legs in the air perched on the railing, swigged vodka straight from the bottle, popping pills that I puked and reswallowed. I couldnt jump. So I go back down and put a blade to my neck. I screamed and cried that Im a coward but I need to die. I blacked out and was found facedown in the middle of the bridge by cops and hauled off into a german loony bin for 3 months. 0/10 would try again
Oh god, that's brutal. I'm sorry that happened to you. I'm thinking of doing something similar, probably with vodka and ativan, at night.
