Story Joy in the secret of my suicide

[GongLiFang]

I don't know if other people feel the same way but it has been many years that I have been considering suicide and since a bad visit to the psych ward last year I have done a lot of work to appear "doing well enough" so people trust me enough now. Now that my suicide plans are really kicking into gear, there is something so satisfying about not being bothered and making a decision for myself for once. My future is certain and it is up to me, I am making the decisions now and I have a solid timeline. Not only that, a lot of my existential dread for the world has felt more manageable because even though the world is a fucking dumpster fire, I just have to worry about my suicide. Something that nobody else knows about or can interfere with.
Needless to say, my list of worries have decreased and the only thing I need to seriously consider and plan for now is plan B if the suicide goes wrong which is much more manageable. Anyways, just glad that I came to this site and spent the time researching and lurking around because it has been great to get some tangible knowledge on suicide and getting some real viable options for the one thing I have wanted to do with my life for so long. Thank you all for being so helpful and accepting :)

 

[Chiisai]

I don't know if other people feel the same way but it has been many years that I have been considering suicide and since a bad visit to the psych ward last year I have done a lot of work to appear "doing well enough" so people trust me enough now. Now that my suicide plans are really kicking into gear, there is something so satisfying about not being bothered and making a decision for myself for once. My future is certain and it is up to me, I am making the decisions now and I have a solid timeline. Not only that, a lot of my existential dread for the world has felt more manageable because even though the world is a fucking dumpster fire, I just have to worry about my suicide. Something that nobody else knows about or can interfere with.
Needless to say, my list of worries have decreased and the only thing I need to seriously consider and plan for now is plan B if the suicide goes wrong which is much more manageable. Anyways, just glad that I came to this site and spent the time researching and lurking around because it has been great to get some tangible knowledge on suicide and getting some real viable options for the one thing I have wanted to do with my life for so long. Thank you all for being so helpful and accepting :)

I hope life will be kinder and better towards you but whatever your decision is, I wish that you will finally find the peace you seek. I wish you well.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that for many people it can be a relief having a plan to exit this world. I wish you the best in whatever happens and I hope you find what you are looking for.