Jfc hanging is so fucking scary the second time around

[crocune]

Did a trial run of partial hanging and I chickened out before losing consciousness but ended up blacking out after and woke up with my mind racing and neck in pain along with accidentally biting the inside of my mouth and shoulders sore

Afterwards I did more research and set up a complete hang but can't even put my neck through the belt after stepping on the stairs because of the fear of actually dying this time. What the fuck

I just want to get it over with.

 

[sad.lgbtq]

I'm so sorry !!! Hopefully you can find what your looking for soon.

 

[lycheeginger]

Did a trial run of partial hanging and I chickened out before losing consciousness but ended up blacking out after and woke up with my mind racing and neck in pain along with accidentally biting the inside of my mouth and shoulders sore

Afterwards I did more research and set up a complete hang but can't even put my neck through the belt after stepping on the stairs because of the fear of actually dying this time. What the fuck

I just want to get it over with.

sounds like a trauma response. anxiety attacks, night terrors, unease and hypervigilance, a "freeze" response, etc.. your brain is subconsciously doing everything in its power to prevent itself from being damaged again.

i'm so sorry that you have to go through this. NDEs are rough on their own, going through one as a "trial run" is a different story. please give yourself time to rest.

 

[Crow_88]

Did a trial run of partial hanging and I chickened out before losing consciousness but ended up blacking out after and woke up with my mind racing and neck in pain along with accidentally biting the inside of my mouth and shoulders sore

Afterwards I did more research and set up a complete hang but can't even put my neck through the belt after stepping on the stairs because of the fear of actually dying this time. What the fuck

I just want to get it over with.

This is close to what happened to me. I was in full suspension and it failed. Then I couldn't bring myself to try again.

 

[fkyou]

This is close to what happened to me. I was in full suspension and it failed. Then I couldn't bring myself to try again.

Full suspension failed?! What failed about it?
Edit:nvm.i read your story

 

[Forveleth]

This is pretty normal. It is one of the reasons I tell people to take time and rest after an attempt. Almost dying is scary and it will take time for your brain to recover. I know waiting sucks but take a few days and be gentle with yourself. Eat some food you like, do something you enjoy. Give your brain time to calm down, then try again when you're ready.