Discussion jealous of victims

[schatzbunny]

i feel like an awful person saying this but whenever i see news of reported accidents or a shooting or bombing or any unfortunate event where innocent people are killed, i feel envy somewhere in me. like why couldn't that have been me. why couldn't i have been the unfortunate victim of a drunk driver accident. why couldn't i be there when some psycho shooter was going at it and have my life taken instead of some innocent stranger's who's life had a lot more promise than mine. it hurts my brain to think so many innocent people have their life forcefully taken away from them and then there is selfish traumatised me who craves death.

 

[unluckysadness]

I feel this too. It's really unfair because these victims don't want to die.

 

[deadhead12!]

I really agree with you. I always wish it was me.

 

[Defenestration]

The same, exactly the same
Exactly the same

 

[Pale_Rider]

When I was at my worst I wasn't going to allow my death to happen at another person's hands, or whim. that's just what my thoughts were.

 

[Rev346]

My dad died in an auto accident recently. He loved life and one of my early memories was him berating me because I asked for a knife to stab myself in the heart with when I was 8. My first thought was why him instead of me? It sucks that so many others get the peace of death when we are the ones that want it.

 

[schatzbunny]

My dad died in an auto accident recently. He loved life and one of my early memories was him berating me because I asked for a knife to stab myself in the heart with when I was 8. My first thought was why him instead of me? It sucks that so many others get the peace of death when we are the ones that want it.

im sorry for your loss. hope we find our peace.

 

[AstralMadness]

same. it's sad that people who don't wanna die just leave like that when i've been waiting for 13+ years to and.. here i am

 

[IDCAAEBM]

If my mother's first husband didn't stop himself from shooting her, I wouldn't have to be here right now. I went out looking for my own fate, and only met cowards who would rather mentally fuck me over than physically harm me. I realized, I have to take matters into my own hands. No one is going to do it for me, I have to do it myself.

 

[yesi]

Exactly, I wish it were me instead.

 

[Defenestration]

Yez very jealous

 

[RosebyAnyName]

I understand this, being able to die without having to set it up yourself and without being hated or blamed for it would actually be fantastic. It's twisted, but it would make me feel like I'd finally get the uncritical adoration and love I've always wanted (even though, realistically, I wouldn't be around to see it).

 

[Defenestration]

People hate ctb