Help I've tried to jump 8 times now. How the hell do I push through?

[MyChoiceAlone]

One girl from here managed to jump after 50 attempts.

50 attempts? what would you consider an attempt? who would bother counting after 10?

 

[conflagration]

Let's say you have 2% chance of successfully fighting survival instinct every trial. Expected number of trials untill success is 50 than.

 

[bluebus]

That was my attempt too. I chickened out last minute after months of preparation. I think cause it wasn't as quick as I wanted it to be and I was sober at the time and could feel my body reacting to it, like tingling toes and all that and the bag wasn't too tight over my head so I had a lot of irrational thoughts like what if I fail, what if I cause permanent brain damage and then have to live being a vegatable. Hated myself for a long time.

I'm on my way to secure another method, (apply to work in a vets clinic and steal the N) but I've never stolen anything in my life and I'm scared.

Oh wow I'm sorry it didn't work out for you. I hope that I'm able to go through with it. This is the method I feel most comfortable with for sure.I'm definitely not going into it sober, so maybe that'll help. I can't say I've ever stolen anything either, so I get your anxiety over it. I wish you the best of luck on this mission! I hope you're able to find peace somewhere.

 

[venin]

That was my attempt too. I chickened out last minute after months of preparation. I think cause it wasn't as quick as I wanted it to be and I was sober at the time and could feel my body reacting to it, like tingling toes and all that and the bag wasn't too tight over my head so I had a lot of irrational thoughts like what if I fail, what if I cause permanent brain damage and then have to live being a vegatable. Hated myself for a long time.

I'm on my way to secure another method, (apply to work in a vets clinic and steal the N) but I've never stolen anything in my life and I'm scared.

That's really bright, honestly I hope you succeed

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that only those who've managed to succeed in this method can truly answer the question but anyway I personally just don't believe that one can force themselves to go through with it, I imagine that those who succeeded in jumping were very desperate and determined as that method really does sound terrifying and it's like the survival instinct just exists to prolong suffering, I really wish that it's easier to leave this world.
But anyway best wishes, I hope you eventually find what you search for.

 

[Cryptonite]

50 attempts? what would you consider an attempt? who would bother counting after 10?

I'd say every genuine, non-demonstrative try with previous preparation. 50 was just an approximation, I guess.

Let's say you have 2% chance of successfully fighting survival instinct every trial. Expected number of trials untill success is 50 than.

Yes