I’ve tried SN & it’s not for me. Been researching. First post btw!

[drownitoutwithmusic]

Hey! Just wanted to say I've been lurking on this site for maybe 3 years now. I feel like I want to at least give my experiences and air my own struggles.

I've tried SN - didn't have a great time at all. I ended up in the hospital & I also was experiencing really bad side effects and it wasn't painless at all. I really can't ever do that again.

I just wish there was a way I could go pain free. I'm so tired.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

What's a pain free method to you?

 

[drownitoutwithmusic]

What's a pain free method to you?

I would say one that doesn't hurt me the way I have before in the past. I wish I could be unconscious & feel nothing. Like in my sleep.

 

[Shu]

So what kind of pain did you experience?

 

[drownitoutwithmusic]

So what kind of pain did you experience?

Excruciating headache, vomiting, felt like my heart was gonna beat out of my chest - like my pulse from my neck felt like it was gonna burst. Not peaceful at all. Not how they say. I also couldn't walk & needed help.

 

[BigPP]

Excruciating headache, vomiting, felt like my heart was gonna beat out of my chest - like my pulse from my neck felt like it was gonna burst. Not peaceful at all. Not how they say. I also couldn't walk & needed help.

Sounds like you are allergic to it actually

 

[drownitoutwithmusic]

Sounds like you are allergic to it actually

You sure? Well that sucks - that's what everyone talks about on here. I feel so hopeless.

 

[Ecka-26]

Did you follow Stans method?

 

[Shu]

Sounds like the typical symptoms of SN ingestion. Did you follow the guide? Sorry that happened to you.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I would say one that doesn't hurt me the way I have before in the past. I wish I could be unconscious & feel nothing. Like in my sleep.

What method do you think would produce that kind of peaceful exit for you?

 

[Doombox]

Excruciating headache, vomiting, felt like my heart was gonna beat out of my chest - like my pulse from my neck felt like it was gonna burst. Not peaceful at all. Not how they say. I also couldn't walk & needed help.

Did you take anything with the SN?

 

[drownitoutwithmusic]

Did you follow Stans method?

Well honestly, no. I'd say that even if I had anti nausea meds it wouldn't take away the heartbeat problem. That was my biggest issue. I thought about following the method but I felt like I could handle the nausea & I did, but the heartbeat thing was what did it for me.

Sounds like the typical symptoms of SN ingestion. Did you follow the guide? Sorry that happened to you.

No I didn't. Also I replied to someone on here but I literally couldn't handle my heart beat - I'm shaking even thinking about it now. It was not peaceful. Not a peaceful way out at all.

Did you take anything with the SN?

No. I'm assuming people are gonna tell me I should've followed the method 100% but I literally almost died - my blood was awful looking. If I would've not called I would've died. Would've been painful tho.
Hey if I'm bad at replying on here or I do it wrong I'm sorry I've never used this site before.

 

[Doombox]

That's why taking propanolol can help with SN.

 

[drownitoutwithmusic]

That's why taking propanolol can help with SN.

Almost all of the medications that are recommended are prescription only.

If anyone can help me at all I'd greatly appreciate it.

 

[Doombox]

Almost all of the medications that are recommended are prescription only.

If anyone can help me at all I'd greatly appreciate it.

I think we'd all love a pain-free method. If you're a lurker than you probably know about N. Obtaining N sounded like too much of an ordeal for me.

 

[drownitoutwithmusic]

I think we'd all love a pain-free method. If you're a lurker than you probably know about N. Obtaining N sounded like too much of an ordeal for me.

Yeah I know about that. I don't wanna drop 1k on something & I also don't want that coming through the mail. I just need someone to help me honestly.

 

[Hope:-)]

Did you fast prior?

 

[madebrief]

Hey! Just wanted to say I've been lurking on this site for maybe 3 years now. I feel like I want to at least give my experiences and air my own struggles.

I've tried SN - didn't have a great time at all. I ended up in the hospital & I also was experiencing really bad side effects and it wasn't painless at all. I really can't ever do that again.

I just wish there was a way I could go pain free. I'm so tired.

Sorry you didn't have a good experience with SN.

I think for all members here, can you please fully explain what steps you took in the lead up to drinking SN and how you ended up in hospital? (Ie did you call or someone found you?)

My q's are;
Did you take the recommended 20/25g dose with 50ml water?
Did you have a back up glass?
Did you take antiemetic?
Did you take all other medicines as advised?
Did you fast for the right amount of time?

 

[ge0rge]

press x to you-know-what

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you went through this, it sounds really horrible. Dying should always be peaceful, we have already suffered enough in life so we shouldn't have to suffer in our last moments. I also wish to exit pain free, to me a peaceful death is the best thing that can possibly happen. If only dying was easier. I hope that you find relief from your suffering.

 

[ge0rge]

you say it's your first post, yet you were talking to someone on here when you were going through these things? was it a PM, or? giving sus vibes

 

[Shu]

you say it's your first post, yet you were talking to someone on here when you were going through these things? was it a PM, or? giving sus vibes

I think they might have meant replying to another comment could be wrong though..

 

[drownitoutwithmusic]

you say it's your first post, yet you were talking to someone on here when you were going through these things? was it a PM, or? giving sus vibes

Hey for some reason I couldn't get on this website. Not trying to seem sus - I don't remember where I said I've talked to someone in here bc I haven't. I don't really know how to reply to a comment properly I guess or make a separate comment on my post…sorry

Did you fast prior?

I did….for maybe 15 hours?

I'm sorry that you went through this, it sounds really horrible. Dying should always be peaceful, we have already suffered enough in life so we shouldn't have to suffer in our last moments. I also wish to exit pain free, to me a peaceful death is the best thing that can possibly happen. If only dying was easier. I hope that you find relief from your suffering.

That was so sweet thank you! Sorry for some reason I couldn't get on the website but thank you for your kinds works!

 

[Dried_Ink]

Excruciating headache, vomiting, felt like my heart was gonna beat out of my chest - like my pulse from my neck felt like it was gonna burst. Not peaceful at all. Not how they say. I also couldn't walk & needed help.

I'm sorry that you had to endure such a surprising level of pain and discomfort. Glad you got the help you needed. Tachycardia is scary to experience but easily treatable with beta blockers like propranolol. It's considered a "luxury item" in Stan's guide (since a prescription is not easily obtainable without a valid medical reason i.e. a diagnosed heart condition) but truly it seems essential with SN, given how distressed you were by the increased pulse.

Could Stan's guide be downplaying the tachycardia associated with SN (does not cause any pain or discomfort, comparable to heart rate after physical exercise or watching a scary movie, etc)…idk? Everybody's physiology is different. But obviously it was your reason for calling for help, which I read that you did in one of your earlier posts in this thread.
My question for you is did you ever reach unconsciousness, either while waiting for help to arrive or under their care, and if so roughly how many minutes passed before you did?

 

[veryhappyhuman]

So sorry that you went through this. It feels scary because this is my method, but I guess they don't call it "poor man's N" for nothing.

I hope you don't have any long-lasting complications from the attempt. It's so sad that we can't even take our own lives easily and painlessly. Wish you find peace!

 

[drownitoutwithmusic]

I'm sorry that you had to endure such a surprising level of pain and discomfort. Glad you got the help you needed. Tachycardia is scary to experience but easily treatable with beta blockers like propranolol. It's considered a "luxury item" in Stan's guide (since a prescription is not easily obtainable without a valid medical reason i.e. a diagnosed heart condition) but truly it seems essential with SN, given how distressed you were by the increased pulse.

Could Stan's guide be downplaying the tachycardia associated with SN (does not cause any pain or discomfort, comparable to heart rate after physical exercise or watching a scary movie, etc)…idk? Everybody's physiology is different. But obviously it was your reason for calling for help, which I read that you did in one of your earlier posts in this thread.
My question for you is did you ever reach unconsciousness, either while waiting for help to arrive or under their care, and if so roughly how many minutes passed before you did?

Honestly I literally was having a panic attack from my heart racing. It makes me freaking out even talking about that part specifically. I literally felt like my veins were gonna burst from my neck I'm so serious. No I never reached unconsciousness - actually at the hospitol they had to give me me 6 liters of oxygen and this blue looking antidote. It was fucking awful I really don't think anyone should try this method. I also have a huge medical bill to pay for now. I was really hoping I could find one that was more peaceful.

So sorry that you went through this. It feels scary because this is my method, but I guess they don't call it "poor man's N" for nothing.

I hope you don't have any long-lasting complications from the attempt. It's so sad that we can't even take our own lives easily and painlessly. Wish you find peace!

I think I honestly paid like $15 for the actual product needed for it and I wish I would've never bought it. I literally got it on Amazon before they stopped selling it on there. I'm looking for something & willing to pay more but I'm not willing to buy anything that's illegal to purchase.

Sorry you didn't have a good experience with SN.

I think for all members here, can you please fully explain what steps you took in the lead up to drinking SN and how you ended up in hospital? (Ie did you call or someone found you?)

My q's are;
Did you take the recommended 20/25g dose with 50ml water?
Did you have a back up glass?
Did you take antiemetic?
Did you take all other medicines as advised?
Did you fast for the right amount of time?

1. Yes I did! I took even more than 25g. I may have taken around 30g?
2. I didn't have a back up glass - even after throwing up my skin was already turning blue. (It has to do with the SN & the really long medical term I can't remember). But my doctor looked at my fingers and toes and said it had already started.
3. Actually I'm not sure. It was back in January. I did vomit just a little, but again I was still dying. I literally had this little blue spot on my leg for a week after I left the hospital.
4. Nope bc most of those meds are all prescription and I don't have a doctor. So I'm sorry if this isn't helpful.
5. I fasted for 15 hours. I don't eat much anyway and I do remember being very hungry.

Honestly I literally was having a panic attack from my heart racing. It makes me freaking out even talking about that part specifically. I literally felt like my veins were gonna burst from my neck I'm so serious. No I never reached unconsciousness - actually at the hospitol they had to give me me 6 liters of oxygen and this blue looking antidote. It was fucking awful I really don't think anyone should try this method. I also have a huge medical bill to pay for now. I was really hoping I could find one that was more peaceful.

I think I honestly paid like $15 for the actual product needed for it and I wish I would've never bought it. I literally got it on Amazon before they stopped selling it on there. I'm looking for something & willing to pay more but I'm not willing to buy anything that's illegal to purchase.

1. Yes I did! I took even more than 25g. I may have taken around 30g?
2. I didn't have a back up glass - even after throwing up my skin was already turning blue. (It has to do with the SN & the really long medical term I can't remember). But my doctor looked at my fingers and toes and said it had already started.
3. Actually I'm not sure. It was back in January. I did vomit just a little, but again I was still dying. I literally had this little blue spot on my leg for a week after I left the hospital.
4. Nope bc most of those meds are all prescription and I don't have a doctor. So I'm sorry if this isn't helpful.
5. I fasted for 15 hours. I don't eat much anyway and I do remember being very hungry.

And let me reply a bit better to the last person….
-Basically I woke up and I had fasted for 15 ish hours. I took more than what was recommended in the guide. I threw up a little (was weird cuz it was like grey/black colored?) and then my heart was beating so fucking hard. Like I've done intense exercising and that shit made me throw my SN away as soon as I got home. Was in the hospital and needed 6 liters of oxygen & this blue antidote. Obviously was being watched for a few days & was peeing blue/green (the antidote) for 2 weeks. If I googled I could find what the medication is called. But they said my blood work was awful & like molasses. My nurses said that if I wouldn't have come in I would've died. So I mean yeah I would've died but I wanted it to be peaceful.
Also, I was discharged and my blood work was good & so were my organs. One thing I'm worried about is if I was lacking oxygen to my brain for an extended period of time? Cuz when I was in the ambulance my head was hurting and I'm not good with science but I'm wondering if I have brain damage now? Bc I needed all of that oxygen. I felt so bad for the nurses and doctor but I also think they looked at me like I was stupid. They had never heard of it before.

 

[blue_muse]

There's bound to be a degree of discomfort with relatively peaceful methods. Simply falling into unconsciousness after drinking something; it's the stuff of fiction.

 

[drownitoutwithmusic]

There's bound to be a degree of discomfort with relatively peaceful methods. Simply falling into unconsciousness after drinking something; it's the stuff of fiction.

I'm trying to find a better one. Thinking of argon gas.

 

[blue_muse]

I'm trying to find a better one. Thinking of argon gas.

The trouble with that method seems to be getting the right mask or making the right bag. You're right that that method is painless though.

 

[drownitoutwithmusic]

The trouble with that method seems to be getting the right mask or making the right bag. You're right that that method is painless though.

I can spend money on it if I can get the exact right materials and it's written for dummies (sometimes I find it very confusing) but I def could get the gas today.