DeadMeat123
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- Jul 10, 2026
- 21
I ws supposed to do ctb but I overlooked a crucial point when I hanged myself the rope was attached to a door above my wardrobe but when I knelt the rope started rubbing against the edge of the wardrobe door. I don't know how to explain it well but simply put after a short while the rope was cut because of this and I unfortunately regained consciousness. But hey I'll take this opportunity to explain in detail what it felt like. When I put the rope in and knelt didn't feel any suffocation.
What I felt was a gradual rise with a sensation of heat in my face and of course the same feeling of pressure on my neck within seconds I felt my consciousness fading
I feel saying "felt" here is inaccurate because you lose your sense of being altogether. I felt exactly the same feeling of being unable to determine where you are when you suddenly get up after a long period of inactivity less dizziness but the same absence of self and place. for a while, I was in a state close to sleep then suddenly I opened my eyes with 0% control over my body I was lying on the floor rolling violently and making involuntary movements and my consciousness was nonexistent still confused and don't understand what's happening, but it stopped. After I regained consciousness, I felt extremely thirsty and my mouth was dry. Other than that everything was fairly normal. It's worth noting that I took some ibuprofen and atenolol (in high dosess.but within the normal range), so perhaps that's also relieving the pain. This is the second time I've failed to hang myself, but I think next time I'll be able to avoid this mistake and buy a stronger rope. Also, I've reduced my attempts and ordered some SN as a Plan B, although I still prefer to hang myself because, as I mentioned earlier, I didn't feel much pain and according to @2ndme's posts (may she rest in peace) SN seems to be scary but i orderd it as a plan B anyway
It should be noted that I am also coughing up some blood now I think the rope caused injuries inside my throat
Yeah i think i damaged my throat Dx
What I felt was a gradual rise with a sensation of heat in my face and of course the same feeling of pressure on my neck within seconds I felt my consciousness fading
I feel saying "felt" here is inaccurate because you lose your sense of being altogether. I felt exactly the same feeling of being unable to determine where you are when you suddenly get up after a long period of inactivity less dizziness but the same absence of self and place. for a while, I was in a state close to sleep then suddenly I opened my eyes with 0% control over my body I was lying on the floor rolling violently and making involuntary movements and my consciousness was nonexistent still confused and don't understand what's happening, but it stopped. After I regained consciousness, I felt extremely thirsty and my mouth was dry. Other than that everything was fairly normal. It's worth noting that I took some ibuprofen and atenolol (in high dosess.but within the normal range), so perhaps that's also relieving the pain. This is the second time I've failed to hang myself, but I think next time I'll be able to avoid this mistake and buy a stronger rope. Also, I've reduced my attempts and ordered some SN as a Plan B, although I still prefer to hang myself because, as I mentioned earlier, I didn't feel much pain and according to @2ndme's posts (may she rest in peace) SN seems to be scary but i orderd it as a plan B anyway
It should be noted that I am also coughing up some blood now I think the rope caused injuries inside my throat
Update:The SN might arrive today I ordered it a few days ago. If I decide to use CTB through it I will document the symptoms I am experiencing here to help future members, maybe this is the last good thing i can do in this world
Yeah i think i damaged my throat Dx
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