I'm only alive because my attempts have failed, not because I want to be alive. Meaning I'm miserable being here and I guess that makes me miserable to be around. My sister used to care when I cried but now I've burnt her out with it. She's the one who's fought the most for me to stay alive but she doesn't want to hear about my pain anymore. We were closer when I first got this way a couple years back. I think she'd still have respect for me if I'd actually killed myself then. Now she'd still be sad of course, but I think I just mostly irritate her now. And I feel so alone with the overwhelming pain. That my tears don't matter anymore, just because they come too much.
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Tbh that's kind of ideal for suicide. The thing stopping many of us is loved ones, so we try to push them away until they don't care anymore so it won't hurt them as much.Similar threads
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