howcanigo
another day without saying what i want to say?
- Sep 9, 2023
- 45
I think humans generally live for other people and not themselves. not primarily anyway. i just didnt have really any people i connected with.
i've fallen in love, i didnt think it would happen, we've been close friends for well over a year. i think i should've known i would catch feelings. i told them about my suicidal thoughts one night over the phone and they actually listened. they stayed on the phone with me all night. they didnt make it entirely about them. they didnt say that it was selfish or not a choice i could make. they just listened and said that if i do decide to go, they want to know before i do so that i don't completely leave them in the dark to find out about it from someone else. i promised i'd stay around for another year, see how i feel then. i was planning on leaving in april of next year. i suppose i can wait a bit longer.
most of my problem is we cannot see eachother that often because of ride issues, and neither of us live alone. i cant do much about that though. ill figure it out.
(yes i did just have a thread about how i wanted to break up with my girlfriend so i wouldn't hurt her, which i did break up with her. our personalities just did not match beyond friendship. yes i am a lovesick idiot.)
thank you for reading my little spiel
i've fallen in love, i didnt think it would happen, we've been close friends for well over a year. i think i should've known i would catch feelings. i told them about my suicidal thoughts one night over the phone and they actually listened. they stayed on the phone with me all night. they didnt make it entirely about them. they didnt say that it was selfish or not a choice i could make. they just listened and said that if i do decide to go, they want to know before i do so that i don't completely leave them in the dark to find out about it from someone else. i promised i'd stay around for another year, see how i feel then. i was planning on leaving in april of next year. i suppose i can wait a bit longer.
most of my problem is we cannot see eachother that often because of ride issues, and neither of us live alone. i cant do much about that though. ill figure it out.
(yes i did just have a thread about how i wanted to break up with my girlfriend so i wouldn't hurt her, which i did break up with her. our personalities just did not match beyond friendship. yes i am a lovesick idiot.)
thank you for reading my little spiel
