Venting I've deleted my meme channel

[kitten on internet]

I've been an admin of a meme channel on Telegram for around a year, it had like 2000 subscribers. Lately I've been posting there some venting about my depression and suicidal thoughts. Most of the comments were positive, however some people were quite toxic. Today I've uploaded quite an agressive post about me having no friends and most of the reactions were clown emojis. I got real disgusted by my own audience bullying me, so I deleted all the posts and renamed the channel to a set of random letters. I also tried to ban all the subscribers, but it was pointles as there were too many. It appeared to be impossible to delete the channel completely. While deleting the subscribers I also noticed my mom was subscribed and I really didn't want her to see my posts.

Why are people such scums? I know on the Internet people behave different rather that irl. I also understand it's pointless to get angry on people for who they are, for they will always remain the same and there's nothing you can do about it. I got nothing from being an admin, all I tried to do is to make some folks laugh, make their day better and they treat me like this. I also have a page on vk.com with the same content, yet this one has 40k. Guess I'll just post ads until the page will be dead and there will be no views. I don't want to bring good to these people anymore, I'm really disappointed.

 

[northevelyn]

I'm sorry people can be so mean

 

[unknowngirl]

Many people online nowadays are loser rage baiters with nothing to do they probably feel have same thoughts as you

 

[Praestat_Mori]

People don't understand! It's better to vent here among like minded people!

 

[deadstillwalking]

"Social media made y'all way too comfortable with disrespecting people and not getting punched in the face for it."
-Mike Tyson

 

[Defenestration]

Post pictures this please i love this

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's incredible how fast people can turn online. Plus, how nasty they can get. I recently started rewatching a channel made primarily by a guy although, we were always aware of his partner. She had a channel also. They seemed to have gone through a breakup a while back and the amount of people taking sides is crazy. Even though the people themselves are requesting people don't take sides. Of everyone, they seem to be being the most reasonable about it and, it's their relationship! It's so crazy.

I think social media must cause so much mental distress. It's such a double edged sword. Weird really too, you'd think people would be more sympathetic towards depression. There seems like there's so much about.

Serves them right though ultimately. They'll suffer from this. You did your bit to bring them some joy in life. I expect they'll miss it now you'll stop.